Is upon us, once again and it's the time of year that people are making resolutions...
I too have thought about changes I would like to bring about in my life, number one being to get myself into school this year if it kills us all! Of course I'm not going to kill anyone, but this is very important to me and I think it will greatly change (for the better) some of the opinions I have of myself. Speaking of changing opinions, that's another thing I am going to do this year, work on how I see myself, because I know that no matter what anyone else thinks (and I do respect many of your opinions), weather good or bad, it will never mean as much to me and I will never gain anything from those opinions if I don't see myself from a healthy perspective. Enough said, those are my resolutions for 2008!
January 1st, 2008 is a very special day to me, it marks the eleventh year that Jay and I have been married. Some times it only seems like yesterday that we stood in a church and said our vows, others, it would seem another lifetime, funny, how time works. I feel like the most incredibly blessed woman in the world and at times find myself lacking the words to explain how he still makes me feel, though, cherished, loved and safe pop into mind instantly when I think of him. All I really know is that He makes me want to be a better person, for myself, for him, for our children...and that can never be a bad thing! Thank you Jay for coming into my life...I love You!
I know, I know, this all sounds very emotionally mushy and stuff, but as much as I hate to admit it, I am a woman and prone to emotional outbreaks from time to time, so get over it! lol!
I hope that You all ring in a safe and Happy New Year!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Is upon us, once again and it's the time of year that people are making resolutions...
Thursday, December 27, 2007
The holidays have been wonderful this year, especially after receiving a gift I've wanted for years! A camera.
I've been snapping pictures of unsuspecting victims (family/friends/animals/trees...pretty much anything that will stay still long enough for me to shoot!) all week. Here are a few that I really like...
This is Tony(our youngest, 4), while it looks like he fell off a bike, this wasn't the case, he was actually upset because he got a remote control truck and the battery was taking too long to charge. I wish he'd been smiling, but I like the way this turned out never the less.
This is Eli (He'll be 8 Jan. 6th, the middle child), he was out playing and I got him to stop a second to catch this shot, another that I really like.
And this is of the neighbor's cat, I'm not a huge fan of cats, but I like the coloration of this animal, so I caught it sitting still and got this...
I hope to figure out soon how to get the pictures onto the computer without them becoming so huge!
I hope you all have had a wonderful holiday season so far and wish you all a spectacular new year!
Monday, December 24, 2007
"I am also so ecstatic about what’s going on with our house! We are renovating…if I had a camera I would be taking pictures of all this to show you guys, but alas I do not, perhaps J will get me one for Christmas ; ) That would be mega cool!"
Well, I have the coolest husband in the world! He got me a camera, a really nice one too! (Must put BJ on my list of things to give Him!) So, I started taking pictures already and have some of the addition that was once the carport, now, taking on the shape of a room. I'm SO excited. We swapped gifts last night as he thought it would be nice to have a camera for the holidays, ya know! I didn't argue at all, I thought it was one of the finest ideas he's come up with yet...lol!
Anywho, here are the pics!
(This will be the theater room when it's all closed in.)
(Double doors that I've wanted so long!)
(From inside the theater room looking out through the not yet finished walls.)
There are sure to be more soon!
Have a wonderful Christmas!
Thursday, December 20, 2007
I was over at Rock Dog's Blog and saw this really cool meme that he did, and decided to do one myself.
It asks what you would say to yourself if you could write a note to you when you were 13, did that make sense? Here are a few things I would love to say to me back then.
Dear thirteen year old Scarlett,
I’m writing you (myself) from 16 years in the future, the date is 12/20/07, the president is George Bush, no not Bush Sr. there is a Jr. Yes, yet another one made it in...God Bless America :o)
Anyway, none of that is why I’m writing you, there will be time for that later. For now I want to try and pass down a few pieces of knowledge that you may find useful. Here goes…
Whatever you do, where ever you go, no matter who you happen to be around…DON’T let people convince you that you’re ugly, stupid and worthless, it’s just not true and you’re going to spend the next sixteen years making stupid mistakes to convince yourself of this and you’re going to waste a lot of time beating yourself up over why these people don’t like you. It’s their loss, let that shit roll off your back. Besides, most of those people now look at you and trip out on how different you look and YES you will have boobs someday!
Work HARD in school, don’t be lazy, you’re smart and would do well to learn now while your young, believe me, you will appreciate yourself more in the future if you do. History IS important and you will find later in your life that you actually DO enjoy the subject; in fact you love learning of any kind. Pay particular attention to your English/Literature classes, it will come in handy when you begin writing, yes, we write (sometimes), isn’t that cool!
Don’t light that cigarette! Put that out right now! You dense girl, what the hell are you thinking, you sing, you play musical instruments and you’re fucking it all up even though you don’t realize it yet, you’re laying the path that will eventually take a big toll on all of that! Take care of your lungs, keep singing and playing, don’t let that talent slip past you, you have as good a chance as anyone to make something out of it, so long as you don’t screw it up!
Draw your heart out! Let all of it out in your art, stop bottling things up, it doesn’t help. It’s only going to build up more and more until we just become a very angry little bitch for a while.
Remember that no matter what is going on in your life, it will pass, there is nothing placed in front of you that you aren’t able to handle if you will use your mind to figure it out and not just react emotionally.
I could go on for ages on things you shouldn’t do and things that will make your (my/our) life easier, but you are young and curious, and have much on your mind, so I will stop now and let you get back to your life. It does get brighter :o) go live it!
Your Future Self
P.S. You are still a tomboy and I don’t think that will change though you will learn to enjoy getting dressed up to go out with your significant other. Yes dear, you will eventually find someone….
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
I have decided that I am the grinch, all this talk of lovely memories; happy holidays, Christmas long past and such make my toes curl...
It's not the holiday itself per se, I guess, but the stress of buying, shopping, buying, searching and did I mention buying? I'm such a guy when it comes to shopping; I hate it!
I am excited to see the reaction on my children's faces this year though, we are getting them each their own game system (probably a PS2 each, for the older two and perhaps a V Smile for our 4 year old) and I know they are going to freak, but in a good way. This will be their first game system and I think they'll love them!
I am also so ecstatic about what’s going on with our house! We are renovating…if I had a camera I would be taking pictures of all this to show you guys, but alas I do not, perhaps J will get me one for Christmas ; ) That would be mega cool!
Anyway, about the house…we are turning the carport into a family room and Theater room, the ultimate man room, I’m going to get pictures of it somehow for you guys when he finishes it. With what he has in mind I’m sure that this house will be the hang out place for all the kids of the neighborhood…just lovely…lol! We are also ripping up all the carpet and putting in wood and tile floors throughout the house, can’t wait for that to be complete, no more pesky carpet stains!
I hope you all have a wonderful week!
Friday, December 14, 2007
This is my current desktop background. I was fooling around in Photo Shop and this is what I got. Nothing special, but simple with just a splash of color to remind me to smile when the world is gray. : ) Corny...I know.
Have a wonderful weekend my (as hubby calls you all) blog buddies
Thank You Rock Dog for mentioning my blog on your bitchin' show!!! That was super cool.
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Friday, November 23, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
I'm sitting here, frustrated as hell with myself. You see, I went through this period in my life when everything I wrote (or drew) seemed to be golden, it all fell into place and came out lovely or whatever...Anyway, for about six to eight months this hasn't been the case. I feel like absolutely everything I write is shit and not worth the memory it takes up on my PC, I'm stuck with about 5 different stories I would love to finish, but every freaking time I sit down to continue on these wonderfully written beginnings...I get nowhere and somehow end up assing up the whole thing! What gives? Is this the dreaded writer's block (not that I'm in any way saying I'm really a "Writer") that I have heard so much about and if it is...what the HELL do I do to get rid of it? I even feel like there hasn't been anything really good written on my blog in a while either. (Sorry guys and thanks to those that haven't abandoned hope that there might eventually BE hope for this blog).
It's not just in my writing either, I haven't been able to draw a damn thing lately, nothing, not even some silly, cool little doodle. I'm telling you guys, my well of inspiration is dry! My muse has left the scene completely, just took the fuck off and went south for the duration of her cycle or whatever brought on this drought and it's kicking my ass. I feel old and used up though I haven't hit the 30 mark yet and I know this shouldn't be the case, I should feel 29 damn it, full of life with thoughts of amazing adventure swimming through my mind, ready to get up and face whatever life has to throw at me and yet...I find that each day this is not the case. My first thought of the day is: Fuck me sideways, I gotta do all this shit AGAIN! I am pretty sure that the lack of inspiration and motivation are tied together and am even mostly sure I know what it's about, but I don't know what to do about it or how to fix it for the here and now. It's one of those things that only time can fix or bring about, if you will.
Anyway, guess I'm done bitching...if you see my muse, kick her ass and send her back to me!
Friday, November 02, 2007
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
This is J (my hubby) as Satan for a Costume party we attended. He made the horns (he was a Theatre Major in college) and I glued them on him and did the makeup. There were quite a few Satans there, but he was told by several people that his was the best. I took the picture with my phone, that's why it's not so good. Anyway, it was a blast to do his makeup.
On a side note: I went as one of the three Power Puff Girls, I was Blossom, a friend of mine was Bubbles and her friend went as Buttercup. I'll put the pictures up when I get them from my friend, the costumes...we made them! We rocked out to some bands, one of wich my friend's boyfriend is lead singer, he's a really cool guy. The band name is Supre X and they are great!
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Picture sitting back in your favorite easy chair, listening to your weekly radio show and just enjoying life when your hear a news broadcast come on stating that the earth was being invaded by aliens! The fear that would overwhelm you as you heard such an official alert, gathering your children and hurrying them off into the relative safety of the cellar. The horror of boarding up your home, knowing that mere nails would not hold out such a creature as the terrified man on the radio described...knowing that your world, the place you have always called home and found refuge in, was no longer yours alone, but now shared with a strange and dangerous species...
This actually happened to millions of people on Oct. 30, 1938 when the Orson Welles preformed an adaptation of "The War of the Worlds" over the radio in such a way that those listening believed that aliens were really taking over the planet. It was rewritten by Mr. Welles so it would sound like a new broadcast and the sound effects coming across the radio convinced millions to run and hide or leave their homes.
I just thought I would share this tidbit of info, I love this kind of stuff, though it kind of gives me the creeps, that was done on the radio with only sound effects, now we have imagery that easily equates the real thing...
How do you think you would react, or would have reacted back in the day, had you heard the broadcast?...
Monday, October 29, 2007
I haven't written anything in a long, long, long, long...you get the idea...time. So bear with me if this is lame-O!
The wind howled outside sixteen year old Sarah’s window, low and angry causing a branch to slap noisily against the glass, twigs screeched back and forth. Sarah sat in the middle of the room, going through boxes as she unpacked her belongings yet again. Her family never stayed in one place too long though her parents would not say why, she always thought it had something to do with her family heritage; they were descendants of Gypsies, a nomadic people. Lightning arced across the sky and an ear-shattering boom shook the house, the lights flickered, dimmed then returned.
Sarah leapt up, heart in her throat, she wasn’t fond of thunderstorms, and the house truly creped her out. It was a really old house, built in the early nineteen hundreds, everything creaked and moaned as if it would collapse any moment and she was sure she could actually feel the structure swaying with the wind. Sarah grabbed the flashlight off of her dresser and decided to keep it close by…just in case. The tree slapped against the window harder than ever now and rain also pelted the dense glass, lightning lit up the sky outside and everything went black as a terrifying crash brought forth an uncontrollable squeal from the frightened Sarah.
Sarah switched the flashlight on and decided to go check on her mom and dad, she wasn’t going to get anything unpacked with the lights out anyway. The rain sounded like an army marching across the roof, drowning out everything else with the exception of the thunder that continued to shake the house. She held her flashlight in front of her with shaky hands, she really, really was beginning to hate the house and it was only her first night in it. Sarah hated the icy feeling that creped up her spine as she made her way down the long hall to the stairs. Why had her parents decided to take the room at the far end of the house, didn’t they think about situations like this?
From deep with the heart of the house Sarah heard a blood-curdling scream. She took off in a dead run to see if her mother was hurt, She almost lost her balance and tumbled down the stairs in the darkness, but caught at the banner just in time. She decided the house was built well after all, as the banner didn’t even shake when her meager weight of 100 lbs slammed against it. She took a second to steady herself then was back on the go to get to her mom. The eerie cry echoed through the house again just as her mother nearly ran her over going to see why her daughter was screaming.
Sarah screeched as she collided with her mom, both asked the other at the same time. “Are you ok?” Sarah looked at her mom, “That wasn’t me, I was coming down to see if you were alright” Her mom just shook her head. “It wasn’t me, I was in the living room with your father trying to hang a mirror.” They grasped hands as the terrible sound rung throughout the enormous place, neither could tell what direction it was coming from anymore as it seemed to pulse from within the walls of the house itself. Sarah had to raise her voice to be heard. “Mom, this is freaking me out, lets go get dad and get out of here.” Her mother pulled her closer and started toward the living room. “Sounds good to me.” When they entered the room he was lighting candles and hurricane lamps, looking around trying to find the source of the endless wail that seemed to match the vibrations that steadily picked up in strength as it strummed through the house. Sarah could feel in vibrating through her bones, terror gripped her mind as the horrors surrounding her seemed to want to swallow them up.
“Dad, we have to get out of here…please.” She tugged at his arm as he slowly made his way to the living room door. He was going right toward the noise as if he had no choice. She turned to her mother for help, but she too was following the terrible wail. “Mother! Stop! You can’t do this!” Sarah was frantic to snap them out of their stupor; she slapped her mom hard, wincing at having to do such a thing. Her mother never flinched. She pulled hard on her father again and he flung her against the wall, knocking the breath out of her.
Tears shimmered at the corners of Sarah’s eyes as she pushed herself up off of the floor. Her parents were no longer in her line of sight and she hurried to catch up, what she saw when she rounded the corner stole her voice. She tried to cry out, but found herself unable as she watched her father’s hand disappear impossibly into the crack in the floor. She rushed to help her mother and hit a barrier. She finally found her voice as she watched her mothers beautiful features twist in pain as what looked like nothing more than a shadow poured up through the floor, wrapping its self tightly around her mother’s ankles.
Her mother looked up, Sarah could see that she was aware of what was happening around her, she looked at Sarah and mouthed the words: I love you. Then she screamed and blood sprayed from her ankles. Her feet were being pulled down into the impossibly small crack between the floorboards. Sarah could hear bones popping and crunching, splinters of bone shot across the room; getting larger in size the farther her body was pulled. Her mother stopped screaming when her chest was pulled into the floor, her ribs snapped and dug deeply into her lungs.
Her misery had finally ended and Sarah watched in stunned terror as her mother’s lovely face and head took on an odd shape, the eyes that once held so much life bulged monstrously from their sockets, one oozed a sickening yellow substance that caused Sarah to vomit as it rolled to her feet and stopped, staring at her accusingly. Sarah took one last glance toward her mother before everything around her swirled into black and she collapsed to the floor…
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Recently, I joined this group at CafeMom called The Patio and they are doing boobie shots, don't ask...I don't know, but I decided to join in. The picture is terrible, but I thought it might make a fun HNT post, it'll be my first ever!
Happy Half-Naked Thursday!
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Okay, I was bored, so I decided to fool around on Photo Shop and was looking on my PC through my photos when I came upon this one. It was a half way decent picture of me, so I decided...what the hell, why not mess it all up and this is what I came up with...
Monday, October 22, 2007
I'm sitting here at my desk with my window open enjoying something that I haven't seen in a while. Rain! It started raining yesterday and hasn't stopped, it's absolutely wonderful and I just can't seem to get enough. It has finally come back to my favorite season of the year, I love Fall with it's vibrant colours and crisp scents that carry in the cool clean air. I like the way the wind will carry a sound so far through the ever thinning trees, but mostly I like the rain. The cleansing wash of rain that carries all the gunk and grime of summer away. No more dust that clings to everything, turning the grass a dull green until it chokes and dies, dry and withered. Until Autumn (I love that word) when the rain falls again and bright flaming red, purple and yellow/orange hues fill every yard, in the sky and on the ground.
I know this will sound odd, but I think that somehow the crisp air makes the colours seem that much brighter, perhaps the cold air and rain somehow purify the air as it falls and gets rid of the hot, humid haze that we've lived in for for the last two and a half months. Anyway, however it works, I'm always so thankful when October rolls around. We have finally had a break in the terrible drought and I can feel how sated all of nature is, it makes me feel at peace. The sound coming through my open window is so soothing, I always sleep well when it's raining or storming the rhythm lulls me. Hmm... Speaking of sleep, have a good night all!
Friday, October 19, 2007
Ok, so it's been a long time without me posting anything or just silly space fillers to let you guys know that I am indeed still alive and kicking. I have been in search of a job, but the more I think about it, the more I think I want to create my own job. I'm tired of busting MY ass to line some loser's pockets for them. I also figure this will allow me more options on going to school and having all that work out. I have talked about this with a friend I have known from about 12 years old. We work really well together and both feel the same about busting our asses for basicaly nothing. Anyway, wish me luck.
On the home front, my 4 year old is NOT into going to head_start at all. He hates to see me leave and flips out. I can hear him screaming all the way to my van out in the parking lot if he happens to catch me before I can sneak out the back door. He is fine so long as he doesn't see me leaving, but god help all of it doesn't work out that way! My 7 year old isn't liking school this year either, but that is because he is lazy and doesn't want to do the work all he wants is to play, play, play! Get over it kid...life isn't at all like that! He also doesn't react well to his teacher's in his face approach, he's like me if someone gets in my face, I shut down and they will get exactly not a damn thing from me. Geez! Then there is my daughter...oh how I like my daughter, my sweet little A+ student that 9 times out of 10 will have her work done before she gets on the bus to head home. Now if she would put as much effort into keeping her room clean...
My husband is of course as always so good to us, works so hard and wants only to show us how much he cares. I wouldn't trade all the gold in the world for him, thank you J for being mine!
Well, I think I have run out of things to say and it's about time to go get T from head start so I'm going to mosey on now, but I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
Although the world is full of suffering; It is equally full of overcoming it!: Helen Keller
Monday, September 24, 2007
Sunday, September 09, 2007
These words are from Unconscious Mutterings
- Dork :: Whale Penis
- Refurbished :: Furniture
- Basket :: Picnic
- Mousse :: Chocolate
- Studio :: Apartment
- 8 ball :: Fortune Teller
- Masking tape :: Packing/Moving
- Love :: Family
- Wilder :: Laura Engels
- Lindsey :: Lohan
Saturday, September 08, 2007
|You Scored an A|
It's pretty obvious that you don't make basic grammatical errors.
If anything, you're annoyed when people make simple mistakes on their blogs.
As far as people with bad grammar go, you know they're only human.
And it's humanity and its current condition that truly disturb you sometimes.
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Today Luciano Pavarotti Died at the age of 71, due to pancreatic cancer. He died in his home in Italy and the world of Music will miss him surely. My husband very much admires his talent and through J, I have also come to appreciate the beauty of his voice.
You will be missed by many.
Posted by Scarlett at 6:02 PM
Monday, August 20, 2007
I think I have permanently run out of creative things to write, draw, or say, whatever. It's a pretty empty feeling as if my muse suddenly realized she wasn't interested in me anymore, perhaps someone more polished caught her eye. I have sat down to this key board so many times in the last few weeks and could come up with absolutely nothing to say. Nothing has been able to spark an interest in me lately and I'm pretty sure it all stems from my want to be in school right now. I understand that now isn't a good time financially with my husband's new (1 year old) company and with the price of day care for three kids on a one income home, so I will put it off and get a job (once I get my vehicle working properly again) until next year, sock away some cash for the cost of day care or whatever when I am in school and grit my teeth in anticipation until it can finally happen. Did I mention I'm not the most patient person in the world?
I'm still waiting to see if my youngest son will qualify for head-start, if not I will just have to take some of that cash I'm socking away for school and spend it on day care. Ahh, it never ends...does it? On the up side, my other two kids are in school and one is doing their work hole heartedly...the other, not so much. We're working on it. Any tips to getting a lazy kid to do...well, anything? I think we may have to have a teacher swap, his teacher is a bit unaware of personal boundaries and my son doesn't respond well to that, for that matter nether did I when she was right in my face talking to me about my son, she wasn't mean or rude per se, but she really didn't seem to have a clue or care about invading another person's space and that's a big thing for me. My son is quite a bit like me in that when someone invades my space or gets confrontational, I shut down, I have nothing left to say because I tend to get tongue tied and just make a fool of myself so shutting up is a much more dignified recourse for me. I'm not sure that is the logic behind his shutting down, but whatever the reason he does and I have seen first hand how he responds to the teacher. I had to bite my tongue when she literally backed him to the wall (right in front of me) and was only about 10 inches from his face talking to him. I want my children to respect their teachers so I didn't say anything while he was there, but I told her while he waited on me int he hall... (this conversation was on the 5th day of school starting.)
"Well, Ms.H, you are a bit different than any teacher he has had so far."
What do you mean, Mrs. P.?"
"You are a bit more in his face and more out spoken than any other teacher he's had, I'm not trying to tell you how to do your job because god knows I don't think I could do it, but his other teachers were firm yet a little more gentle with him, he responded to them differently."
"Well, I have tried to be nice and give him chance after chance to do his work and he just wont do it, I can't allow him to take time away from every other student in the class."
"I agree whole heartedly Ms. H, and I have let E know that his laziness will not be tolerated, we will continue to work with you on this. Thank you for taking the time to see me about him and we will keep a close eye on his daily progress folder for updates."
I continued to do the two-step with her to just keep her at least arms length so she would stop touching my person while the conversation turned to her telling me she thinks he is ADD. I don't know why he isn't willing to do anything for the poor lady, but I know that no matter how tedious or time consuming a project may be here at home if it is something he wants to do or is getting paid to do, he can accomplish it with no problems keeping his mind focused. I'm not saying he isn't ADD and I'm more than willing to have him tested, but I do think that some teachers are all to eager to push drugs on students that pose the least bit of discomfort to the stability or flow of the way they picture their class functioning. I am not and will not ever say that all teachers are this way and I mean no disrespect to any teacher, even for those that I would say diagnose children as ADD or ADHD too quickly, I admire people who have the gift to teach and often wish it were one of my talents as I think that might make parenting easier. I do however believe that there are those few (as in any other profession) that would rather do the easier thing and simply give the child something that will force him to calm down, like it or not. I fear that it's a bad thing to teach children that a pill will cure everything at such a young age, not to mention the fact that once they are on Ritalin or other such drugs they then have to take more drugs to curb the side-effects of the first drug introduced, by the time they are ten years old they're already taking a hand full of pills to make it all go away. Stress, anxiety and having to handle responsibilities or the feeling that go along with not handling them is just a part of life and I don't think teaching our kids to suppress their feelings with drugs is a good thing for their future in a world that is generally full of stress.
Let me go ahead and say that I do think that for some children these drugs are completely necessary, I have known some children that were literally unable to control their need to fidget and this drug help them to become a more stable person without loosing them self in the drug, but I also know others that simply need an outlet, a place to use the talent that is bottled up inside and let it shine, giving the attention or self worth that they need to find and will never find in a pill. I'm not downing medicines I just think they shouldn't be so readily given out to children.
Well, this wasn't supposed to be a soap box rant, but that is what is seemed to turn into...see, nothing creative to write about. Hence my absence in writing, perhaps soon I will have something more interesting to share, until then...Have a beautiful time!
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
Here is a wall paper that I made for my desktop. Nothing special, just something I threw together. I hope some day soon I will be inspired to write or draw or something again.
2cd Version (and my favorite of the two)
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
This was sent to me in an email and well worth posting, actually I'd have felt like an ass after watching this if I hadn't.
To all who serve in honor of this great country...My heartfelt gratitude for defending my right to be free. For this I love you, I am proud of You, and I will never forget.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
I just wanted to let everyone know I am alive and doing pretty good. I will try to get that tag done for Chalice soon, sorry Chal that it's taking so long, but I have not forgotten!
Here are a few quizzes I found...
|You are Bettie Page|
You're a famous beauty - with unique look
And the people like you are cultish about it
|You Are 79% Real|
Like everyone, you struggle with the parts of yourself that aren't so great...
But you're good at accepting who you are and not dwelling on your faults.
As a result, you're confident, optimistic, and very real.
|Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Spiderman|
|Your Glamour Icon Is|
Saturday, June 30, 2007
|You Are a Plain Ole Cup of Joe|
You're a low maintenance kind of girl... who can hang with the guys
Down to earth, easy going, and fun! Yup, that's you: the friend everyone invites.
And your dependable too. Both for a laugh and a sympathetic ear.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Monday, June 18, 2007
* I have to post these rules before I give you the facts.
* Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
* People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
* At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
* Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
8 Things About Me…
One. I don’t like basements, underground parking, caves or any small, closed in places. I don’t like the thought of thousands of pounds of weight above my head just waiting to collapse on me.
Two. I love flying, I want to learn to fly a glider some day, there is nothing like the way you feel when you’re above everything.
Three. I’m not fond of being at the top of tall buildings.
Four. I want to visit every Country in the world: Australia, Egypt, Israel and Scotland in particular.
Five. I don’t like to see kids with no respect. I think that people have too little respect for life in general.
Six. I want to start some sort of operation that will reach the people in THIS country who are without. I don’t mean those able to change their lives on their own, but those stuck in such places as the Appalachian Mountains, with few to no chances of ever leaving or changing the situation they’re in.
Seven. I love nature, anything that can be done out of doors is wonderful!
Eight. This is the first time I have ever been tagged to blog something!
And the winners are...
Queen of the Mayhem, and sadly to say...that's about the only other blogger I know to tag that hasn't already been tagged or that is still posting...if I can think of anyone else, I'll surely add them.
I absolutely love this song, it makes me want to get up and move and if I could get hubby to dance like this...well, I swear I would have to chew his pants off right in the middle of the dance floor. If you can't tell, I love to dance and this song is definitely one I can get my groove on with.
I will have more to post, hopefully later today!
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
I don't think you have ever been introduced to my family, I'm not sure why I've waited so long to do this, perhaps it was what this blog originally started out as had nothing to do with my kids and I wanted to be sure people understood that, but it has drifted away from that part of my life and is now more focused on my family, dreams and goals and I'm happy of that. Not that I don't still cling to certain proclivities, but I feel that perhaps, some things are better left unsaid, or at least said less often.
This is my husband 34, and myself...28 years old. We have been married 10 years, 6 months, 12 days, 1 hour and 37 minutes. I'm so in love with Him and feel blessed beyond words to have Him in my life.
This is my daughter and the eldest of my children at 8 years old. This one will go far in life, she is a strong willed and determined young lady. She knows exactly what she wants and how she wants it and will settle for nothing less. While these are admirable traits, they also keep me on my toes. I'm also proud to say that my girl was an Honor Roll student again this whole school year!
This is my middle child and oldest son, 7 years old. This child has a heart as big as the world and it is made of solid gold. He aims to please, and he is so smart, I know he can do absolutely anything he chooses too. Now, if I could find a way to get him motivated and excited about school and cleaning his room...lol!
This is the youngest of my boys, he just turned 4 in April. This little red head is a fire ball! He can be so sweet when he wants to, he is also very intelligent and can't wait to get into Head-Start this coming August.
Friday, June 08, 2007
My friend came over before school to borrow my shower and had her camera, she said let me take your picture I'm taking picture of all my friends, so I said yes and here you have it folks...me at 7 AM. I'm not exactly sure what I was thinking, but I'm going to call it not being awake. I am not photogenic even on the best days, why I thought that would change in the morning I'll never know...lmao.
She actually wanted to get the picture because of my hair, you see I have terrible frizzies and she left her straightening iron here last night (I own one, but I now know that the one I bought sucks!) I used it and it took me twenty minutes with hers, while it generally takes me almost two hours with mine and never looks this good. Anyway, the point is I like it straight and so did she so she had to have a picture.
PS. Yes, I do have red and black hair. : p
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Well, school is officially out and I have all 3 (8,7 & 4 years old) of my kids + my best friend's son, he is 9 years old. This makes for a full day, I am up by 7:30 am to let K's son in, feed him breakfast and get him settled down to watch cartoons or movies until my three are up, then I lay back down, mess around on the PC or just enjoy the quiet until mine wake. They believe in sleeping in as late as they can in the summer, they are up at 5:45 every day for school and appreciate being able to lounge. This works well while I'm watching Kade because he like to be alone and is happy to let my kids sleep and just watch TV, then when the other kids get up I get them fed, dressed and out to play for the day and hope like hell they can get along long enough for me to get some kind of cleaning done.
As soon as possible I'm going to get my application in and talk to the manager for a job I want, I'm also keeping my fingers crossed for the full time position that will open up as soon as the sign shop opens in their new building, the guy (he works in the sign shop doing most of their signs) I'm doing logos with is going to try and get me in there. I'm hoping to get an evening job until that opens up, I need the money as well as the time away from the house, not to say this will ease the things I still have to do at home, but it will ease the frustration of being at home all the time, staring at the same walls day after day. I also like to work, I'm good at it and good at making money...the idea of soon being able to do what I love and make good money doing it thrills me like practically nothing else could.
It's been a little crazy here for me, my mind is cluttered with the want to move up in my life, I'm tired of feeling as if I'll pass through this life and not leave a mark, a real mark...in some way. I know, I have three beautiful children and a wonderful husband and that I am SO blessed to have them. I only hope that my children will remember me as a happy, loving mother and I feel like they will never know me completely as that if I'm not able to do something that makes me feel like a success.
Does that make me a selfish person? I worry. I want so much to be one of those moms that are happy to stay at home all the time, bake and keep a spotless home, but in the nine years of having children I have given up on the spotless house idea and moved on to the...Perhaps if I put them in sports and keep them busy they wont be home to mess it up phase...and that takes $$$. Making money leaves little time for baking though and so I am left to ponder...Aghhhh! I'm tired of pondering, but know that will never really change for me, I want my children to be healthy, happy and secure in themselves more than anything else in this life and that leaves me no choice but to worry about each move I make and how it will effect them.Okay, I've taken a deep breath and know that eventually with enough work and loving care it will all work out and they know they are loved if nothing else.
I think I just have so much going through my head lately that I've barely been able to sort it all and the more I think about it...the more my options, choices and problems that come with all of that...grow. So, what am I doing about it? I'm stopping to take a breather, to enjoy my kids, the warm summer sun on my skin and the cool splash of water every chance I get. I will take the necessary steps to get the ball rolling in the work and school departments, but other than that...I'm letting it go, going to stop stressing on it so much. Life doesn't stop moving, but it will slow down if you take the time to will it to and all of those problems that we deal with on a daily basis...they will be there after you stop to breath, they will probably just seem smaller and easier to deal with. I can only do my best and beyond that, que sera, sera.
Monday, June 04, 2007
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Thank You...Unconscious Mutterings.
- Savage :: Nature
- Warrior :: Athena
- Daisy :: Duke
- Schedule :: Work
- Rock, paper, scissors :: School
- Medical :: Insurance
- Jade :: Statue
- Elevator :: Music
- Drain :: Bath Tub
- Goldfish :: Glass Bowl
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
My Internet has been off and on the last few days, the best I can figure is there is something wrong with my modem. I am supposed to be connected all the time, but it's been luck of the draw for about five days. Tomorrow I'm taking the modem to the Cable company for a replacement. That should fix it, I hope.
We had a blast yesterday kayaking, the river was splendid, even if it was too crowded for my taste. The weather was beautiful and we visited our favorite little waterfall, a wonderful little secluded spot where the water splashes down from about 70 feet above and a cool breeze blows in from the river, the brush is just thick enough to make it a very (yes, you lovely pervs, that's what I mean :) private place.
All in all a spectacular day to be out in the sun and water! I wish we had a camera, when we get one I promise to take a picture of our water fall and post it. Hope you are all having a wonderful summer so far...
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Wow, it's been a whole minute since I last blogged.
I'm blogging right now, quite simply, because I'm seething and need to occupy my mind for a while. Some people boggle me with their selfish and silly ways. I understand the kids need to be kind to animals and I know that my little one sometimes gets over excited with them, but he is a child and more importantly a human being. Now, let me back up and explain myself and where I'm going with this.
I have a neighbor, whom will remain nameless, and she came over to visit. She has 4 cats and worships these animals, that's great for her, I'm happy for her. Well, she was over here and my son was trying to pet our kitten and picked it up by the scruff of the neck (like a mother cat would do) and this woman went ballistic! In MY house, in front of my child! She started yelling that I should teach my children to be "nice" to animals, she then turned to yell at my child. That was it! I told her in no uncertain terms to get out of my house and stay out.
I'm not proud of the way I handled some of it, but all he did was pick up the kitten, the way I taught him to. She believes that is an inhumane way to hold the kitten. I tried to explain to her that mother cats often carry their kittens this way and that it is perfectly natural. That's when she started her tirade. Thankfully she will be moving to Florida soon. Good luck to her! I swear to all I know, I'm tired of people! It seems that the more people I meet...The less I like people. I think I'm happy to just keep my little circle of blog buddies and be done with most of the rest. If only!
On a lighter note...
I'm still excited about school and right now, I'm looking for a job to keep me busy until then. A little extra money never hurts either, so I'm getting an evening job. I'm also still doing the logo thing, though that is in all honesty moving a little slower than I had hoped. Still, I'm new to all of this and really can't expect for it to move very fast...I have SO much to learn.
I feel a tad bit better after having gotten that off my shoulders and my hands are steadily beginning to stop shaking. Perhaps I've settled just a bit. Sorry to you guys for the rant, but hell, if I can't rant here, then where???
P.S. Ladies, if you haven't been over to Angel Feathers Tickle Me you should go check out her latest post Imagine A Woman. It is absolutely beautiful!
Thursday, May 17, 2007
I wave my hand and clear the mist that hides a special place. A place of fantasy and myth, of a journey through time and space.
Where fairies fly on wings of silk above a carefree land while many little water nymphs dream of walking on the sand.
I wonder through this world of mine so full of all my dreams Where dragons fly over mountains high, on scaly golden wings.
The fish they take your breath away with their ability to walk, but it does not faze you, not a bit to find roses that can talk.
I wander through this magical place with power to change all I see. The power lays inside my mind, in a flight of fantasy.
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
My life has been extremely busy lately and oddly enough I haven't really had a lot to say. I'm here, posting, and yet I don't really know where I'm going with this post or if it even has a point. If it did, I guess it would just be this: I'm alive and well and very busy with the mundane, waiting for school to start. Perhaps mundane is too negative a word to use, maybe redundant is a better word to describe my life right now. I feel as if I'm just idling, all geared up and ready to go...revving my engine only to find the track isn't open to me yet. Pure will is keeping me from becoming moody and I find the more I will myself to be excited about getting my home and family ready for this (My family has never really had to deal with me not being around, I'm a stay at home mom at the moment.) experience, the happier I become. All in all, my life is not bad at all. Happy Hump Day!
Monday, April 23, 2007
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
This is some funny stuff. Just read the "offense" and if you've
done it, you owe that fine. Keep going until you've read each
"offense" and added up your total fine. When you are done post this
as "My fine is $____". You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.
Smoked pot -- $10
Dropped acid -- $5
Ever had sex in a church -- $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person next to you -- $40
Had sex for money -- $100
Vandalized something -- $20
Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
Beat someone up -- $20
Been jumped -- $10
Cross dressed -- $10
Given money to stripper -- $25
Been in love with a stripper -- $20
Kissed someone without knowing their name -- $10
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15
Ever driven while drunk-- $20
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50
Used toys while having sex -- $30
Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20
Gone skinny dipping -- $5
Had sex in a pool -- $20
Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
Cheated on your significant other -- $10
Masturbated -- $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- $20
Given oral -- $5
Received oral -- $5
Given/Received oral in a moving vehicle -- $25
Stolen something -- $10
Had sex with someone in jail -- $25
Made a nasty home video -- $15
Had a threesome -- $50
Had sex in the wild -- $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex --$25
Stolen something worth more than a hundred dollars-- $20
Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 --$25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time-- $50
Said you love someone, but didn't mean it -- $25
Been streaking -- $5
Streaked in broad daylight -- $15
Been arrested -- $5
Spent time in jail -- $15
Peed in the pool -- $5
Played spin the bottle -- $5
Done something you regret -- $20
Had sex with your best friend -- $20
Had sex with someone you work with, while at work -- $25
Had anal sex -- $80
Lied to your mate -- $5
Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- $25
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Today J was at a sign shop (Extreme Signs) and started talking to the guy who runs it about my want to do graphics and guess what! I'm working on a business logo for him, if he likes it he will use it and I will get paid. I have a few other things in the works with him that I will be able to share more about with you guys later on. I think it's okay to say it has to do with vinyl and graphics. I am so excited and have been working on logos for hours now, I am headed to bed, but wanted to share my news.
Sweet Dreams All...
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
I'm so board right now, I should be and will get up to clean in few minutes, but I am going to try and post more often...even if it is rubbish like this.
I went back to A.I. last night and took the whole family. At first the kids were not at all happy about going all the way to the other side of Nashville, it's and hour and a half drive, (yeah, for the commute!) but they thought it was awesome once they actually saw the School. They got to do the whole tour and were even allowed into the computer labs to play around a little bit. I think it was good for them because they seem to be a little more alright with the idea of me going to school now.
Well, I'm off to clean now, may post more later...
Monday, March 26, 2007
Sunday, March 25, 2007
I have been working on some stuff in Photo Shop, it's far from complete and has much to be desired, but alas it is only for practice so I'm not too worried about it. Working with the layers through trail and error has been loads of fun...lol. Those of you whom use PS know what i mean. Hell, i can hardly act as though I know what I'm doing other than stumbling through, but hey! It's fun! Mostly these are only for practice on layering and to see what I can do with fonts. Anyway, without any further delay, I present one of the two pictures I'm currently working on... Have a wonderful week!
Thursday, March 22, 2007
The weather is beautiful, Spring is here at last and The children are out enjoying the gorgeous day. We have been out all week, hiking, biking and just enjoying nature. I am ready to begin summer time activities, ready to slough off the heavy dregs of winter and open my windows and doors once more inviting the life of Spring into my home and heart!
I love the life that this time of year seems to bring to everything. Even the air smells fresher, the wind briskly bringing the fresh scent of flowers and greenery. It is time to live in the sun again, gone are the gray and heavy skies that are synonymous to winter, the weighted clothing and dark colors. Let everything sparkle anew!
I hope that all of You, my friends are out and enjoying Yourselves as much as We are here!
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Round and round and upside down jump through hoops and watch them.
Hurry up and rush ahead and don't lose yourself on the way out. Knowing,
one last turn could lead you back to where you've never been before.
And then what? Hmmm? Do you then just keep driving making a turn where
the road allows. And your final destination, will it ever come to you if
you do? They sat it can be done by those who will. Does that mean anyone
can do it? I'd say not, though not because it can't be.
Posted by Scarlett at 4:33 PM
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
It really doesn't matter where I happen to be once it enters my mind it's all I think about. My mind tingles with excitement, perking with anticipation and I long for time to pass just a little more quickly between now and then. I try to keep myself occupied to help the time pass, but as tired as I am at the end of the day, my mind is on overdrive and refuses to shut down. I can only think of four other events in my life that have given me as much anticipation as this one. My wedding day being one and the due dates of each of my kids. I'm so looking forward to advancing and creating a career that I can love for myself, I really think this will help me to see me in a better light, ya know? I have to write a 150 word essay for the day that I go back to The Art Institute, then I'll fill out all the applications, reserving my seat for August 16th.
Other random things going on in my life include but are not limited to:
*Loosing weight again just as I get back up a little, I drop right back down, but I'm not going to worry about it too much, I have too many other things flying through my busy brain and that's probably why.
*My three year old explaining to me in very big boy terms that He was no longer my baby.
*My middle child deciding to just not do anything if He can get away with it. He is so bright that it really bothers me He is so lazy.
*My daughter is about to go through puberty,(is that okay to say on here?) that alone is terrifying. I haven't a clue, my mother just ignored it all until the night before my wedding. I know I can't do that, it's just not right. I know I can make it through this...
Anyway, just boring everyday, life stuff that happens in life. It all just seems to be in slow motion right now, though I know that will not be so for long, sooner than I care to think, I will be in a panic to make sure I have everything ready to go to school. Hmmm, am I really looking forward to that part? Yep! I'm looking forward to every step in this amazing learning adventure!
Happy Hump Day My Friends...
Isn't she BEAUTIFUL!
Posted by Scarlett at 10:36 PM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Why do humans make things so much harder than they really have to be? Why is it that it can take a lifetime for some people to learn something that takes another person only years to figure out and others seem to be born with it? I know that we learn at our own pace and of course that is perfectly natural, but it seems as if there should be some things that just come imprinted into our genes. Perhaps there was at one time? Or, maybe it's still there and we just forgot how to tap into it? I don't know, but somehow, it's been lost to most of the population. Its been replaced though, or perhaps a stronger gene has taken over...who knows? My point is that people just don't care anymore. About anything, really...well, most don't anyway, there is that few somewhere out there that still do. Honestly, I don't think people realize just how selfish they are at times.
In fact, I don't think that people really think about things in those terms anymore. It really has become an every woman/man for him/her-self world, you do what you have to do so you can survive. I don't think people, for the most part, go through life looking for a way to screw someone over. I do think that people end up doing very selfish and insensitive things to get what they think they need or "deserve" at a moment and end up hurting others. I think that is why it is so hard to find a person to whom you can give your trust, to put your heart into that person's hand and say "Here, I'm giving you my heart to do will as you please. My heart means a lot to me, it's my life, all of who I am." There aren't many out there that I would want to even chance that with anymore.
This is where I have trouble because I'm an all or nothing type person, meaning: I don't know how to only be a half friend or only love someone this------much, only let them this-------------close, so that I will be protected. My friend K and T (someone we hope we can call a friend) were all talking about this today. Learning the difference between loving someone enough to see past their bullshit and letting someone use your big heart to get what they want. Where do you draw the line? When is enough, enough? We talked about this for a long time and it was nice to see that as far as the three of us...we are pretty much on the same page.
It was nice to sit and talk about things like this without anyone feeling like fingers were being pointed, just that we were stating our opinions. It's good to be on the same page as someone else, even though the words are written out a little differently through each set of eyes. I feel as if I am growing a lot lately, in many areas of my life and it makes me feel wonderful, makes me want to learn more so I can grow more and become the person that I know I can be. It makes me want to be a better person in all aspects of my life. That's a good thing.
Hope you all have a great week...
Friday, March 02, 2007
I have been playing hell with my PC lately and I THINK I finally figured out why. At least I hope I have. However, I still can't seem to get blogger to upload a pic for me! Grrrrrrrrr! It's not really a picture of anything, more a practice picture so I could work on Texts, fonts and filters...things of that nature.
Anyway, I thought since I did do the text pic, if anyone cared to continue on with what they think happens next...feel free!
Sunday, February 25, 2007
This weekend has been okay, I guess. Things can always be worse, right? Actually I have had much worse, this was more mental stress than anything else. I have far too much going on in my mind right now, that's all. School being foremost in my mind next to making sure the house is in complete order before I start my classes and a couple of other things that are messing with my head.
Knowing that I have to wait until August isn't making any of this easier, but I know that it will go by faster than it actually seems to and then I will be nervous about having everything ready in time to start...it's a cycle I tell ya! lol, funny how the mind works isn't it.
I hope everyone has a great week...
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Wednesday night I went to the Art Institute of Tennessee-Nashville and talked to an Admission Director. She was very nice and helpful. She looked at my art and said she was impressed, I was blown away, it was a real confidence booster for me. I'm so excited I feel like a kid again!
I have decided that it would be best to still go and check out Nossi, I want to see what is out there, I don't want to limit myself in any way. Though I must say I was really impressed with the School. It's small, but nice, modern and not hard to get to, though it is an hours drive away in one direction. *Sigh. Of course, so is Nossi.
It looks as if I wont start until August 16, 2007, but I think I can wait until then! That's a good time anyway, my kids will ALL be in school, even the youngest will be old enough by then to be in Head-Start. Then, I get to start down the road to my career...Graphic Design!
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Shel Silverstein (September 25, 1930 – May 10, 1999)...Was a genious when it came to writing moralistic (is that a word? it is now:) stories and poetry. The following is one of my favorites. I still get a little teary eyed when I read it, to see a story of such complete giving and surrender, complete love for another...
The Giving Tree
Once there was a giving tree who loved a little boy. And everyday the boy would come to play Swinging from the branches, sleeping in the shade Laughing all the summer’s hours away. And so they love, Oh, the tree was happy. Oh, the tree was glad.
But soon the boy grew older and one day he came and said, "Can you give me some money, tree, to buy something I’ve found?" "I have no money," said the tree, "Just apples, twigs and leaves." "But you can take my apples, boy, and sell them in the town." And so he did and Oh, the tree was happy. Oh, the tree was glad.
But soon again the boy came back and he said to the tree, "I’m now a man and I must have a house that’s all my home." "I can’t give you a house" he said, "The forest is my house." "But you may cut my branches off and build yourself a home" And so he did. Oh, the tree was happy. Oh, the tree was glad.
And time went by and the boy came back with sadness in his eyes. "My life has turned so cold," he says, "and I need sunny days." "I’ve nothing but my trunk," he says, "But you can cut it down And build yourself a boat and sail away." And so he did and Oh, the tree was happy. Oh, the tree was glad.
And after years the boy came back, both of them were old. "I really cannot help you if you ask for another gift." "I’m nothing but an old stump now. I’m sorry but I’ve nothing more to give" "I do not need very much now, just a quiet place to rest," The boy, he whispered, with a weary smile. "Well", said the tree, "An old stump is still good for that." "Come, boy", he said, "Sit down, sit down and rest a while." And so he did and Oh, the trees was happy. Oh, the tree was glad.
-- Shel Silverstein
Thank You Shel...
Posted by Scarlett at 10:32 PM
Monday, February 19, 2007
I know, I know, it has been a while since I have actually posted a real entry here. I have been a bit overwhelmed in my life. I'm trying to get my home into a more functional state before I start school, IF I get to start school this upcoming semester, in April. That and the fact: If I can't find a job things will be different around here for a while, namely no Internet or anything that is not a NECCESITY. Not to mention I need to have money to pay for day care so I can go to school. It's a vicious cycle I tell you.
Wow, I got up to do one quick thing and now, about eight hours later I finally am able to sit back down and continue typing. Today has been a long day and I find myself very tired, though I am not quite ready to go to bed yet. I have been battling pneumonia and it's not going away easily. Anyway, just wanted to post and let all of my friends know I am still alive.
Posted by Scarlett at 11:37 AM