Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. - Helen Keller

Wednesday, October 29, 2008


Wow! I'm sorry it's been so long. I no longer have internet, so I'm posting this from school. Things are so weird in my life right now. School is good, though. I hope to one day have internet access again because I really miss You guys! A bunch!

I have a mid-term test in Introduction to Computers today...Wish me luck!

Have a beautiful week...!

Friday, September 19, 2008

Time to check in...

(This is not mine, but a pic I found online and liked!)

I tried like hell to have a Live Journal blog for my school projects, but it's all messed up far as passwords and such. I opened an account there, posted to my blog and everything...then when I tried to get back on there and leave a response to a comment (So sorry Sage!) wouldn't let me sign back in. It tells me that there is no account and I know for a fact that I'm signing in correctly, so I guess that one will sit there and rot! I'll just re-add the blog I've already created here at blogger for school blogging...or hell, I just might keep all that here.

Though I'm not sure...still trying to figure out if I really want this blog to be known by those I attend school with. It might cut into the amount of freedom I have to speak my mind here.

School is going well BTW...though it really sucks to have to drive a little over one hundred miles a day to attend. Especially with the price of gas these days! It's really draining us. It's worth it though because I'm loving it!

Sorry it's been so long, my life has just really been consumed...with so many things...more to come on those things later when I know that it's legally ok to talk about it.

Hope You all have a bitchin' weekend!!!

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Quizzes and Things....

You Are a Visual Learner
You tend to remember what you see, and you have a good eye for aesthetics.
You excel at art, design, and computer programming.
You would be an excellent film director - or the next Bill Gates!

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking
You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.
You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.

You should major in:

Foreign language

Yes, folks I'm still alive...sorry it's been SO long, but we have some major crap going on in our lives right now....I'm also gearing up to go to school in September. Anyway, I missed my blogdom Friends and thought I'd stop in and say hello to any that may still lurk these too long abandoned pages....

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Tuesday, July 08, 2008


I was sitting at a friend's house about a week ago and was writing some random thoughts down as they came to me...I very rarely do this, but I think I am going to share the results with You all and just get Your take on it...

When we embrace and you pull away does my essence stay with you?
Does the heat of my body penetrate you as deeply as yours does mine?
Does your body starve for the taste of me as mine does for you?
Am I in your every dream?
Does it sting for you when we're apart?
Like it does for me?
Take me.
Embrace me.
Make me whole.

Is that sappy? Anyone want to vomit now? Lol.

So, yeah...that was random, but there, floating around in my head. Anyway.

Life is back into the full swing of its normal hectic self. I'm dying to get back out to the farm, but haven't had a chance...ahh well. I will eventually.

Not entirely sure how my home life is going around here. I'm never home and when I am, there isn't a lot I want to say.

I'm starting the enrolling process for AI of Nashville and am excited about that. (More on that later.)

Hope You all have a great week!

Friday, June 27, 2008

The I Meme...

This is for Southern Sage

I am: A woman, mother and wife.
I think: Far too much.
I know: Far too little.
I want: To go to school.
I have: Everything I need.
I wish: That I could travel the world and help those who need it.
I hate: Selfish People.
I miss: The innocence I once felt.
I fear: The loss of a child.
I feel: Too much too often.
I hear: My children and a TV playing to no one in particular.
I smell: Pizza
I crave: To satisfy those I love.
I search: For Truth.
I wonder: If we truly are the only beings in this enormous universe.
I regret: Too much.
I love: Completely.
I ache: Deeply.
I am not: Selfish, cruel or jealous.
I believe: In a God of unfathomable love.
I dance: Every chance I get.
I sing: Ok.
I cry: Rarely.
I don’t always: Answer my phone when it rings.
I fight: Only if someone threatens my family or friends.
I write: In moods.
I win: Gracefully.
I lose: Gracefully.
I am never: Not tired.
I never: Panic in an emergency situation.
I always: Sleep on my right side.
I confuse: A lot of people.
I listen: To what people say.
I can usually be found: At work or at home.
I am scared: Of falling under frozen water.
I need: Therapy!
I am happy: Sometimes.
I imagine: So many things….

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

My Trip...

Was ok.

The drive was long...even so, I did enjoy how flat it is there.

The hotel was nice...though situated in the middle of nowhere.

There was a really cool outside mall that one could catch a shuttle to...Easton...I don't like to shop.

The book I took with me (The Judas Strain) has turned out so far to be, I stayed in my room and read while we were there.

And so went my vacation....

Monday, June 23, 2008

Movie Buff???

Your Movie Buff Quotient: 88%
You are a movie buff of the most obsessive variety. If a movie exists, chances are that you've seen it.
You're an expert on movie facts and trivia. It's hard to stump you with a question about film.

Friday, June 20, 2008

I'm Heading Out....

To Ohio...I should be back Sunday Night some time...

Have a Wonderful weekend!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The Man In the Moon is at My House...

I've always thought the moon to be a pretty awesome thing...Here's what the moon looks like from my home...

What does Yours look like tonight? Have You even taken the time to look or enjoy? Want to? You know You do...go ahead...I'll wait.

It's beautiful isn't it? I'm happy I could share ;-)~

It's a tad blurry...I know. My camera's batteries are almost dead and it's not holding focus...such is life. Perhaps, tomorrow's moon will be as full and I will have a new opportunity to take a clear shot of the man in the moon!

Monday, June 16, 2008

Just Driving...

I know, I know...With the price of gas who can afford to drive, but then I ask myself how much my sanity is worth to me and that by far outweighs anything gas could cost...

So...I drove around for about 4 hours the other day and enjoyed myself immensely and enjoyed being by myself...words can't express it. Anywho, on my little venture of the twisting, winding roads of Tennessee...I took some pictures and thought I would share them with you. Little pieces of least through my eyes. These are the roads and other things of interest that grace the countryside near the ranch/farm that I work on from time to time.

This is just so random, but I was driving down a little road and came upon this..I don't know if someone camps here or if it's just a place to rest tired feet...whatever...I thought it was cool, so here ya go...

Monday, June 09, 2008

Checking In...

Ok...if there is still anyone coming around to read...I apologize for my disappearance...I'm just not ever home anymore. I'm getting at least 45 hours a week at Camp and then whatever hours I can work on the much as they will let me work...I'd be there 40 hours a week too if they'd let me. Keeping busy keeps my mind numb and right now that's what I need...not to think too much.

Anywho...that's a whole other post...maybe.

Hope You All have a wonderful week!

Friday, May 16, 2008

Riding the Barrel!

I have told you all about working at the farm, well yesterday I took T (my 5 year old...he just got out for summer break) out there with me. We had a blast. I bought a memory card for my camera and took it with me...This is one of the videos I took. S and N finally talked T into riding on the bull training barrel, he had a blast. The guy with the cowboy hat (N) runs the farm/ranch and the other guy is my brother-in-law... S. They also talked me into getting up there, but I wasn't about to let anyone video that. LOL!

While I'm not a huge fan of country music, this is one of my favorite country songs and I thought it fitting as he was really afraid to get up there, but did it anyway. I know it's not the best shooting, but I would say not too terrible for a first try. I'm also still figuring out all the ins and outs of editing video...anyway I thought I would see what you all think of it anyway.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Life Lately...

Wow, I feel like a total slacker. Here it is a couple of weeks and I haven't posted anything. Thanks so much for those of you who have come by to check on me...You all kick ass!

Well, I guess I should start with the whole job thing...I'm working the restaurant part time (whenever the owner calls) and at a ranch with my brother-in-law (S), at a camp and here at the house getting it ready to sell. I am not fond of the kitchen job still, though it has gotten easier to deal with the smell, but I absofuckinglutely LOVE working on the ranch. I'm a huge fan of horses and this allows me the opportunity to be around them and work with them without paying out the ass for one...S is also one of the coolest people I have the honor of calling friend, so that's cool and did I mention that I love it! I'm working at a camp as a cook...I love this job as well, I get to cook without having to fry everything I cook. It's also not short order cooking, I cook a meal for anywhere from 30 to 150 people then serve the food and clean the kitchen. I like that a lot better. It also entails cleaning dorms, but that's not bad at all. I have also had a few people ask me to create some artistic things for them...Needless to say this keeps me pretty busy, but right now that's what I need...something to keep me occupied.

Tuesday J's grandmother died and that has been super hard on him as they were very close. She had a stroke about two weeks ago and has been struggling since then. So it was a blessing, I guess, in that she isn't in pain anymore. I will miss her terribly, she is without a doubt the most kind person I have ever met in my entire life. Period. I never heard that woman raise her voice or utter anything that could even remotely pass as judgmental, harsh or uncaring. She was 87 years old, Mother to 1, Grandmother to 3 and Great Grandmother to 10 grandchildren. She lived a long life and lived it as an amazing woman, mother, grandmother and great grandmother.

Other than this there really isn't much of anything at all going on in my life right now...I guess I should be glad of this as my plate is pretty full as is. Hope you all have a wonderful week!

Thursday, April 03, 2008

I finally got a job...

I just wanted to let everyone know that if I don't manage to comment it's not because I'm not reading or's just that I'm either not here or too tired to even turn on my PC. I'm not going anywhere, I will still be here, it's just that right now I'm trying to get into some kind of regular work schedule, right now I am just working whenever the owner has me there.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Friday, March 21, 2008

My Favorite Song...Of the Moment!

I have so many "OMG that's my favorite song!" songs...really! Music moves me as nothing (Not even mind numbing sex) can. I don't know why, but it and it alone can sooth me as no other thing on this earth. My art included and I absolutely love doing that. It still doesn't touch what the right song can do for me, so I think I'm going to start posting them on this blog more often. I believe that if you take the time to listen to the words of a song someone else is listening to, you can get a good idea of what point they are in their lives. I choose songs that best suite what I am going reminds me that I am not the only who feels this way...that I am normal (to a point). Call it reaffirmation if you will. Whatever. The point is...I love music and would like to make it a part of this blog.

That said: Here is my favorite song of the moment...

Here is the acoustic version...

Monday, March 10, 2008

Our Snow

We got about 3 or 4 inches...

Friday, March 07, 2008

This and That...

These are a couple of pictures of my friends, they wanted fantasy pictures and this is what I have so far...I'm still working with both of them, but it's mostly just tweaking what I already have.

This is a logo idea that I am working on for a local band, they want me to design t-shirt logos...this is most definitely NOT a finished product, but something I threw together in about 5 minutes to show the guy where my mind was headed...they weren't interested in that particular design, but he did say he liked the direction I was headed with it. If the t-shirts sell I will get a percentage and that would be nice! Perhaps this will lead to something.

In Other News: We have about 3 inches of snow (actually it's small hail and sleet with a deceptive little layer of snow over it) on the ground and more to come, up to six inches...hmmm...that's what they all say...*goes to get her measuring tape*!

Have a bitchin' Spring Break!!!

Monday, March 03, 2008

Picture This.....

Here are a few pics that I'd forgotten about...You may have seen these somewhere, but I thought them worthy of posting again...They are just so full of wisdom. ;-)




4. When all else fails............................

5. And finally...

Monday, February 18, 2008

The Visit...

So, tomorrow is the big day...

I go to see the Dr. and am keeping my fingers, arms and legs crossed that I don't have any major issues...well, my fingers and arms, unfortunately I wont be able to cross my legs during this procedure!

I'm trying very hard not to think too much about it, it freaks me out quite a bit. I had a biopsy on my throat with the Thyroid Cancer and I'm not at all excited about them doing a biopsy on my...uhm, yeah, so anyway! I mean...I know I'm a pain slut and all, but needles inside that area...not my thing!

So much for not thinking about it!

I'm off to hyperventilate for a minute so I can get on with my house work....

Thursday, February 14, 2008

I'm not original at all...

I have read the book "Scarlet Letters" and am aware of its popularity. I am also a HUGE fan of "Gone With the Wind" and I'm well aware that I'm not the only fan of either of these...

What I wasn't aware of was how totally unoriginal the name to this blog is! I went online just to see how often "Scarlett Letters" was mentioned in a Google search and was blown away by how many other blogs share the name! I read one lady's Bio and would have thought it was mine had I not known that I didn't make it!

So, this is how I discovered that I'm a totally unoriginal blogger!

To all my blogging friends...

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

My Little Elfling...

My daughter wanted me to take a picture today, she wanted to be an ice princess...I ended up playing around with it in Photo Shop. This is how it turned out...

I have some more work to do on the ears and eyes, but I'm happy with what I have done up to this point...

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Look Into My Eyes...

Here is a picture of me, I was just messing around with Photo Shop. Then I got into it and decided to make a picture of me if I were an elf! I would love to really have irises like that!

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Whatever It Takes...

I love this song...could listen to it over and over again...

Friday, January 04, 2008

Do People Like You? Do you care? lol!

People Definitely Like You
You are very well liked, and many people admire you.
You are friendly, well mannered, and fun to be around.
Of course, you're not perfect... but that's okay.
Your friends are usually willing to accept you for who you are!

What People Don't Like About You:

People don't like that you seem unnatural and stiff at times. You sometimes give off an impression of being standoffish or fake.

People don't like that you're not very interesting or engaging. You often bore them... and yourself.

What People Like About You:

People like that you give them support and strength. Friends know that they can count on you to be there for them.

People like that you give them complements. You make people feel good about themselves!

People like that you don't gossip or talk poorly of others. They trust that you will speak positively about them too.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Happy New Year!

Should auld acquaintance be forgot, And never brought to mind? Should auld acquaintance be forgot, And auld lang syne?
Chorus: For auld lang syne, my dear, For auld lang syne. We'll take a cup o' kindness yet, For auld lang syne.
And surely ye'll be your pint-stowp! And surely I'll be mine! And we'll take a cup o' kindness yet, for auld lang syne.
We twa hae run about the braes And pou'd the gowans fine. We've wandered mony a weary foot, Sin' auld lang syne.
We twa hae sported i' the burn, From morning sun till dine, But seas between us braid hae roared Sin' auld lang syne.
And ther's a hand, my trusty friend, And gie's a hand o' thine; We'll tak' a right good willie-waught,, For auld lang syne.

I finally did what I have sworn to do for 3 years now, find and read the lyrics to this song because I've never heard anyone actually singing the words, only mumbles past the well known part...(Should auld acquaintance be forgot, And never brought to mind? Should auld acquaintance be forgot, And auld lang syne?) get the picture. Not that seeing the words help to understand it anymore than I did before...there you have it anyway. Auld Lang Syne

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