Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. - Helen Keller

Sunday, August 27, 2006

What is Your Color?

RED: Strengthens physical energy. Alleviate colds, and flu. Helps with listlessness. Confidence: You can do anything you desire. Physical Strength, Power Action, movement, change and transformation

Red is represented by fire. Fire can create or destroy.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

The Waiting Game...

I would like to send out a thanks to Blu for all of his help with this new template. I like it much better and will hopefully have time soon to add a few more links.

My week has been fruitful yet stressful. I took a test Thursday and will have to wait 2 to 3 weeks to find out the score...if I passed or failed. I'm not a really patient person and this waiting game is driving me nuts. Are you asking yourself...What kind of test did she take? Well, let me tell you. (I'm not sure if I should be proud that I'm finally taking this step in my life or ashamed that it's taken this long) I went Thursday to get my GED (General Education Diploma). I feel pretty good about everything except the math, there were so many things that might as well have been Greek, but then I felt the same way on the pre-GED test and aced it, won the scholarship even, but still I worry that I haven't passed.

A big part of me was proud of myself for winning that scholarship...a bigger part was blown away that I did it. I find it hard to believe that I held the highest score among those taking the pre-test (around 20 people). To pass you must score a 430 on each subject and an average of 480. My lowest score was a 510 in math, the average for all of it was 678. I'm really surprised at this score, but J says that He knew I would pass it and wonders why I waited so long to even chance it. I chock it up to fear of failing and being a very self-conscious person, perhaps I should listen to J more often as He has been telling me for a long time that this would help my self-esteem and confidence...I think He is right, at least I hope He is. I'll find out in about 2 weeks...

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

In Dreams

Along a hidden path lays the way into my dreams A place of hope and sorrow, where nothing is as it seems.

The door in which I enter is a pillow and my bed As the sun goes down and stars appear to shine above my head.

I lay adrift not quite asleep, half here and half there My dreams they finally claim me as I float without a care.

Soaring high above the ground, angels at my side I feel as though I have wings of silk on which I gently glide.

Watching as the moon shines brightly silver and blue beams Me without a worry, I lay safe inside my dreams.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006


I was going through some old files today and came across some of my poems. Here are a couple of my favorites...

The Far Side of the Rainbow

Come along on a magical ride into a galaxy Where people glide through mystical skies and Swim through rainbow seas.

The trees grow near a wishing well Deeper than you’d ever believe Ocean waves on pearly shells and Roses grow on trees.

Buttercups of butter cream Found in rows and rows A fairy princess in each one To help it as it grows.

Clouds of cotton candy float on purple skies As little men with pipes so thin Sit talking with their wives.

All day long kids run and play In fields of lollipops and When it rains the children say It tastes like chocolate drops

Caramel apples grow on trees and Tiny bees with tambourines Make music in the sky Boats set sail, made from shell As mermaids swim near by

Even here on this other world Much is still a like As each and every heart beat slows To the rhythm of the night

The evening gives way to the end of day As shadows grow dark and shady A star burns out and is reborn Before the Lunar Lady

Powerful Goddess though she be The sky is ruled by light The silver sun may guild the day but A pink moon rules the night

Matters of the Heart

Alone I walk this path of mine so weary yet no rest in sight. The darkness silent as the grave I seek the ending of this night. Will I be bound to this depth of hell never to see my love again? To suffer through the end of time without my lover once my friend. Hate has closed his heart to me has taken his hand away from mine. I would give my soul right now to have his love just one more time. Alas I had to say good bye to all I held tenderly in my heart. I have not the courage nor will nor strength to give it another start.

Friday, August 04, 2006


I have wanted to add links to my blog for a long time and have yet to figure it out. Yes, I admit, I'm not very good at all this blogging stuff at times and I need a little help here. Can anyone show me how to add a link to my blog? Please. : )

Sex Study


I called the Head Start yesterday only to find out there were not enough openings for T to go there. They are required as a state run facility to take children who are 4 years old first, then they will accept 3 year olds according to their needs. No one could tell me or even give me a ball park guesstimate of when they will be able to take him,'s time for a re-direct.

Since I really don't care what kind of job I find until I can get my EMT license, I'm going to try and get a job at a day care. This way I'll have work and T can get used to being around a bunch of other kids before he goes into kindergarten without it costing us an arm and leg. It will also alleviate some of the stress of leaving my little boy in an environment that is new or perhaps scary for him. I admit I'm a little bit hesitant at the idea of being around little people all day long, but the cash will be a good thing and so, I'll do what I must. It can't be all that bad...can it?

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