Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. - Helen Keller

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Happy Halloween!!!

This is J (my hubby) as Satan for a Costume party we attended. He made the horns (he was a Theatre Major in college) and I glued them on him and did the makeup. There were quite a few Satans there, but he was told by several people that his was the best. I took the picture with my phone, that's why it's not so good. Anyway, it was a blast to do his makeup.

On a side note: I went as one of the three Power Puff Girls, I was Blossom, a friend of mine was Bubbles and her friend went as Buttercup. I'll put the pictures up when I get them from my friend, the costumes...we made them! We rocked out to some bands, one of wich my friend's boyfriend is lead singer, he's a really cool guy. The band name is Supre X and they are great!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Random Info I Find Interesting...

Picture sitting back in your favorite easy chair, listening to your weekly radio show and just enjoying life when your hear a news broadcast come on stating that the earth was being invaded by aliens! The fear that would overwhelm you as you heard such an official alert, gathering your children and hurrying them off into the relative safety of the cellar. The horror of boarding up your home, knowing that mere nails would not hold out such a creature as the terrified man on the radio described...knowing that your world, the place you have always called home and found refuge in, was no longer yours alone, but now shared with a strange and dangerous species...

This actually happened to millions of people on Oct. 30, 1938 when the Orson Welles preformed an adaptation of "The War of the Worlds" over the radio in such a way that those listening believed that aliens were really taking over the planet. It was rewritten by Mr. Welles so it would sound like a new broadcast and the sound effects coming across the radio convinced millions to run and hide or leave their homes.

I just thought I would share this tidbit of info, I love this kind of stuff, though it kind of gives me the creeps, that was done on the radio with only sound effects, now we have imagery that easily equates the real thing...

How do you think you would react, or would have reacted back in the day, had you heard the broadcast?...

Monday, October 29, 2007

Horror House

I haven't written anything in a long, long, long, long...you get the idea...time. So bear with me if this is lame-O!

The wind howled outside sixteen year old Sarah’s window, low and angry causing a branch to slap noisily against the glass, twigs screeched back and forth. Sarah sat in the middle of the room, going through boxes as she unpacked her belongings yet again. Her family never stayed in one place too long though her parents would not say why, she always thought it had something to do with her family heritage; they were descendants of Gypsies, a nomadic people. Lightning arced across the sky and an ear-shattering boom shook the house, the lights flickered, dimmed then returned.

Sarah leapt up, heart in her throat, she wasn’t fond of thunderstorms, and the house truly creped her out. It was a really old house, built in the early nineteen hundreds, everything creaked and moaned as if it would collapse any moment and she was sure she could actually feel the structure swaying with the wind. Sarah grabbed the flashlight off of her dresser and decided to keep it close by…just in case. The tree slapped against the window harder than ever now and rain also pelted the dense glass, lightning lit up the sky outside and everything went black as a terrifying crash brought forth an uncontrollable squeal from the frightened Sarah.

Sarah switched the flashlight on and decided to go check on her mom and dad, she wasn’t going to get anything unpacked with the lights out anyway. The rain sounded like an army marching across the roof, drowning out everything else with the exception of the thunder that continued to shake the house. She held her flashlight in front of her with shaky hands, she really, really was beginning to hate the house and it was only her first night in it. Sarah hated the icy feeling that creped up her spine as she made her way down the long hall to the stairs. Why had her parents decided to take the room at the far end of the house, didn’t they think about situations like this?

From deep with the heart of the house Sarah heard a blood-curdling scream. She took off in a dead run to see if her mother was hurt, She almost lost her balance and tumbled down the stairs in the darkness, but caught at the banner just in time. She decided the house was built well after all, as the banner didn’t even shake when her meager weight of 100 lbs slammed against it. She took a second to steady herself then was back on the go to get to her mom. The eerie cry echoed through the house again just as her mother nearly ran her over going to see why her daughter was screaming.

Sarah screeched as she collided with her mom, both asked the other at the same time. “Are you ok?” Sarah looked at her mom, “That wasn’t me, I was coming down to see if you were alright” Her mom just shook her head. “It wasn’t me, I was in the living room with your father trying to hang a mirror.” They grasped hands as the terrible sound rung throughout the enormous place, neither could tell what direction it was coming from anymore as it seemed to pulse from within the walls of the house itself. Sarah had to raise her voice to be heard. “Mom, this is freaking me out, lets go get dad and get out of here.” Her mother pulled her closer and started toward the living room. “Sounds good to me.” When they entered the room he was lighting candles and hurricane lamps, looking around trying to find the source of the endless wail that seemed to match the vibrations that steadily picked up in strength as it strummed through the house. Sarah could feel in vibrating through her bones, terror gripped her mind as the horrors surrounding her seemed to want to swallow them up.

“Dad, we have to get out of here…please.” She tugged at his arm as he slowly made his way to the living room door. He was going right toward the noise as if he had no choice. She turned to her mother for help, but she too was following the terrible wail. “Mother! Stop! You can’t do this!” Sarah was frantic to snap them out of their stupor; she slapped her mom hard, wincing at having to do such a thing. Her mother never flinched. She pulled hard on her father again and he flung her against the wall, knocking the breath out of her.

Tears shimmered at the corners of Sarah’s eyes as she pushed herself up off of the floor. Her parents were no longer in her line of sight and she hurried to catch up, what she saw when she rounded the corner stole her voice. She tried to cry out, but found herself unable as she watched her father’s hand disappear impossibly into the crack in the floor. She rushed to help her mother and hit a barrier. She finally found her voice as she watched her mothers beautiful features twist in pain as what looked like nothing more than a shadow poured up through the floor, wrapping its self tightly around her mother’s ankles.

Her mother looked up, Sarah could see that she was aware of what was happening around her, she looked at Sarah and mouthed the words: I love you. Then she screamed and blood sprayed from her ankles. Her feet were being pulled down into the impossibly small crack between the floorboards. Sarah could hear bones popping and crunching, splinters of bone shot across the room; getting larger in size the farther her body was pulled. Her mother stopped screaming when her chest was pulled into the floor, her ribs snapped and dug deeply into her lungs.

Her misery had finally ended and Sarah watched in stunned terror as her mother’s lovely face and head took on an odd shape, the eyes that once held so much life bulged monstrously from their sockets, one oozed a sickening yellow substance that caused Sarah to vomit as it rolled to her feet and stopped, staring at her accusingly. Sarah took one last glance toward her mother before everything around her swirled into black and she collapsed to the floor…

Thursday, October 25, 2007

HNT

Recently, I joined this group at CafeMom called The Patio and they are doing boobie shots, don't ask...I don't know, but I decided to join in. The picture is terrible, but I thought it might make a fun HNT post, it'll be my first ever!



Happy Half-Naked Thursday!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Look Into My Eye...

Okay, I was bored, so I decided to fool around on Photo Shop and was looking on my PC through my photos when I came upon this one. It was a half way decent picture of me, so I decided...what the hell, why not mess it all up and this is what I came up with...

Monday, October 22, 2007

Singing in the RAIN...well, maybe not, but...





I'm sitting here at my desk with my window open enjoying something that I haven't seen in a while. Rain! It started raining yesterday and hasn't stopped, it's absolutely wonderful and I just can't seem to get enough. It has finally come back to my favorite season of the year, I love Fall with it's vibrant colours and crisp scents that carry in the cool clean air. I like the way the wind will carry a sound so far through the ever thinning trees, but mostly I like the rain. The cleansing wash of rain that carries all the gunk and grime of summer away. No more dust that clings to everything, turning the grass a dull green until it chokes and dies, dry and withered. Until Autumn (I love that word) when the rain falls again and bright flaming red, purple and yellow/orange hues fill every yard, in the sky and on the ground.

I know this will sound odd, but I think that somehow the crisp air makes the colours seem that much brighter, perhaps the cold air and rain somehow purify the air as it falls and gets rid of the hot, humid haze that we've lived in for for the last two and a half months. Anyway, however it works, I'm always so thankful when October rolls around. We have finally had a break in the terrible drought and I can feel how sated all of nature is, it makes me feel at peace. The sound coming through my open window is so soothing, I always sleep well when it's raining or storming the rhythm lulls me. Hmm... Speaking of sleep, have a good night all!

Friday, October 19, 2007

Still Kicking...



Ok, so it's been a long time without me posting anything or just silly space fillers to let you guys know that I am indeed still alive and kicking. I have been in search of a job, but the more I think about it, the more I think I want to create my own job. I'm tired of busting MY ass to line some loser's pockets for them. I also figure this will allow me more options on going to school and having all that work out. I have talked about this with a friend I have known from about 12 years old. We work really well together and both feel the same about busting our asses for basicaly nothing. Anyway, wish me luck.

On the home front, my 4 year old is NOT into going to head_start at all. He hates to see me leave and flips out. I can hear him screaming all the way to my van out in the parking lot if he happens to catch me before I can sneak out the back door. He is fine so long as he doesn't see me leaving, but god help all of it doesn't work out that way! My 7 year old isn't liking school this year either, but that is because he is lazy and doesn't want to do the work all he wants is to play, play, play! Get over it kid...life isn't at all like that! He also doesn't react well to his teacher's in his face approach, he's like me if someone gets in my face, I shut down and they will get exactly not a damn thing from me. Geez! Then there is my daughter...oh how I like my daughter, my sweet little A+ student that 9 times out of 10 will have her work done before she gets on the bus to head home. Now if she would put as much effort into keeping her room clean...

My husband is of course as always so good to us, works so hard and wants only to show us how much he cares. I wouldn't trade all the gold in the world for him, thank you J for being mine!

Well, I think I have run out of things to say and it's about time to go get T from head start so I'm going to mosey on now, but I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

Although the world is full of suffering; It is equally full of overcoming it!: Helen Keller

Monday, September 24, 2007

Tagged!...

I was tagged by the lovely Chalice and this time I will be sure to complete it!

What's on your desktop?

Here's what's on mine.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Unconscious Mutterings...Posted Words

These words are from Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Dork :: Whale Penis

  2. Refurbished :: Furniture

  3. Basket :: Picnic

  4. Mousse :: Chocolate

  5. Studio :: Apartment

  6. 8 ball :: Fortune Teller

  7. Masking tape :: Packing/Moving

  8. Love :: Family

  9. Wilder :: Laura Engels

  10. Lindsey :: Lohan

Saturday, September 08, 2007

There, They're, Their...

You Scored an A
You got 10/10 questions correct.

It's pretty obvious that you don't make basic grammatical errors.
If anything, you're annoyed when people make simple mistakes on their blogs.
As far as people with bad grammar go, you know they're only human.
And it's humanity and its current condition that truly disturb you sometimes.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Farewell Pavarotti...



Today Luciano Pavarotti Died at the age of 71, due to pancreatic cancer. He died in his home in Italy and the world of Music will miss him surely. My husband very much admires his talent and through J, I have also come to appreciate the beauty of his voice.

Farewell Pavarotti...



You will be missed by many.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Life...

I think I have permanently run out of creative things to write, draw, or say, whatever. It's a pretty empty feeling as if my muse suddenly realized she wasn't interested in me anymore, perhaps someone more polished caught her eye. I have sat down to this key board so many times in the last few weeks and could come up with absolutely nothing to say. Nothing has been able to spark an interest in me lately and I'm pretty sure it all stems from my want to be in school right now. I understand that now isn't a good time financially with my husband's new (1 year old) company and with the price of day care for three kids on a one income home, so I will put it off and get a job (once I get my vehicle working properly again) until next year, sock away some cash for the cost of day care or whatever when I am in school and grit my teeth in anticipation until it can finally happen. Did I mention I'm not the most patient person in the world?

I'm still waiting to see if my youngest son will qualify for head-start, if not I will just have to take some of that cash I'm socking away for school and spend it on day care. Ahh, it never ends...does it? On the up side, my other two kids are in school and one is doing their work hole heartedly...the other, not so much. We're working on it. Any tips to getting a lazy kid to do...well, anything? I think we may have to have a teacher swap, his teacher is a bit unaware of personal boundaries and my son doesn't respond well to that, for that matter nether did I when she was right in my face talking to me about my son, she wasn't mean or rude per se, but she really didn't seem to have a clue or care about invading another person's space and that's a big thing for me. My son is quite a bit like me in that when someone invades my space or gets confrontational, I shut down, I have nothing left to say because I tend to get tongue tied and just make a fool of myself so shutting up is a much more dignified recourse for me. I'm not sure that is the logic behind his shutting down, but whatever the reason he does and I have seen first hand how he responds to the teacher. I had to bite my tongue when she literally backed him to the wall (right in front of me) and was only about 10 inches from his face talking to him. I want my children to respect their teachers so I didn't say anything while he was there, but I told her while he waited on me int he hall... (this conversation was on the 5th day of school starting.)
"Well, Ms.H, you are a bit different than any teacher he has had so far."
What do you mean, Mrs. P.?"
"You are a bit more in his face and more out spoken than any other teacher he's had, I'm not trying to tell you how to do your job because god knows I don't think I could do it, but his other teachers were firm yet a little more gentle with him, he responded to them differently."
"Well, I have tried to be nice and give him chance after chance to do his work and he just wont do it, I can't allow him to take time away from every other student in the class."
"I agree whole heartedly Ms. H, and I have let E know that his laziness will not be tolerated, we will continue to work with you on this. Thank you for taking the time to see me about him and we will keep a close eye on his daily progress folder for updates."

I continued to do the two-step with her to just keep her at least arms length so she would stop touching my person while the conversation turned to her telling me she thinks he is ADD. I don't know why he isn't willing to do anything for the poor lady, but I know that no matter how tedious or time consuming a project may be here at home if it is something he wants to do or is getting paid to do, he can accomplish it with no problems keeping his mind focused. I'm not saying he isn't ADD and I'm more than willing to have him tested, but I do think that some teachers are all to eager to push drugs on students that pose the least bit of discomfort to the stability or flow of the way they picture their class functioning. I am not and will not ever say that all teachers are this way and I mean no disrespect to any teacher, even for those that I would say diagnose children as ADD or ADHD too quickly, I admire people who have the gift to teach and often wish it were one of my talents as I think that might make parenting easier. I do however believe that there are those few (as in any other profession) that would rather do the easier thing and simply give the child something that will force him to calm down, like it or not. I fear that it's a bad thing to teach children that a pill will cure everything at such a young age, not to mention the fact that once they are on Ritalin or other such drugs they then have to take more drugs to curb the side-effects of the first drug introduced, by the time they are ten years old they're already taking a hand full of pills to make it all go away. Stress, anxiety and having to handle responsibilities or the feeling that go along with not handling them is just a part of life and I don't think teaching our kids to suppress their feelings with drugs is a good thing for their future in a world that is generally full of stress.

Let me go ahead and say that I do think that for some children these drugs are completely necessary, I have known some children that were literally unable to control their need to fidget and this drug help them to become a more stable person without loosing them self in the drug, but I also know others that simply need an outlet, a place to use the talent that is bottled up inside and let it shine, giving the attention or self worth that they need to find and will never find in a pill. I'm not downing medicines I just think they shouldn't be so readily given out to children.

Well, this wasn't supposed to be a soap box rant, but that is what is seemed to turn into...see, nothing creative to write about. Hence my absence in writing, perhaps soon I will have something more interesting to share, until then...Have a beautiful time!

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Thrown Together

Here is a wall paper that I made for my desktop. Nothing special, just something I threw together. I hope some day soon I will be inspired to write or draw or something again.





2cd Version (and my favorite of the two)

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Remember Me? By Lizzy Palmer

This was sent to me in an email and well worth posting, actually I'd have felt like an ass after watching this if I hadn't.

To all who serve in honor of this great country...My heartfelt gratitude for defending my right to be free. For this I love you, I am proud of You, and I will never forget.





Thursday, July 26, 2007

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Alive...

I just wanted to let everyone know I am alive and doing pretty good. I will try to get that tag done for Chalice soon, sorry Chal that it's taking so long, but I have not forgotten!

Here are a few quizzes I found...

You are Bettie Page
Girl next door with a wild streak
You're a famous beauty - with unique look
And the people like you are cultish about it



You Are 79% Real
You know who you are, and you're pretty darn comfortable with yourself.
Like everyone, you struggle with the parts of yourself that aren't so great...
But you're good at accepting who you are and not dwelling on your faults.
As a result, you're confident, optimistic, and very real.



Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Spiderman
"I have always been standing in your doorway. Isn't it about time somebody saved your life?"



Your Glamour Icon Is
Beauty is eternity gazing at itself in a mirror.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

What Kind of Coffee Girl are You?

You Are a Plain Ole Cup of Joe
But don't think plain - instead think, uncomplicated
You're a low maintenance kind of girl... who can hang with the guys
Down to earth, easy going, and fun! Yup, that's you: the friend everyone invites.
And your dependable too. Both for a laugh and a sympathetic ear.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

A Little of This and That...

Here are a few songs that caught my fancy lately...my taste is very eclectic so here you go.
Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah


Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder


Imogen Heap - Headlock


Breaking Benjamin- Breath

Monday, June 18, 2007

Tagged...

* I have to post these rules before I give you the facts.

* Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.

* People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.

* At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.

* Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.


8 Things About Me…

One. I don’t like basements, underground parking, caves or any small, closed in places. I don’t like the thought of thousands of pounds of weight above my head just waiting to collapse on me.

Two. I love flying, I want to learn to fly a glider some day, there is nothing like the way you feel when you’re above everything.

Three. I’m not fond of being at the top of tall buildings.

Four. I want to visit every Country in the world: Australia, Egypt, Israel and Scotland in particular.

Five. I don’t like to see kids with no respect. I think that people have too little respect for life in general.

Six. I want to start some sort of operation that will reach the people in THIS country who are without. I don’t mean those able to change their lives on their own, but those stuck in such places as the Appalachian Mountains, with few to no chances of ever leaving or changing the situation they’re in.

Seven. I love nature, anything that can be done out of doors is wonderful!

Eight. This is the first time I have ever been tagged to blog something!

And the winners are...
Queen of the Mayhem, and sadly to say...that's about the only other blogger I know to tag that hasn't already been tagged or that is still posting...if I can think of anyone else, I'll surely add them.

This One Tears Me Up...

I absolutely love this song, it makes me want to get up and move and if I could get hubby to dance like this...well, I swear I would have to chew his pants off right in the middle of the dance floor. If you can't tell, I love to dance and this song is definitely one I can get my groove on with.





I will have more to post, hopefully later today!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Allow Me to Introduce...

I don't think you have ever been introduced to my family, I'm not sure why I've waited so long to do this, perhaps it was what this blog originally started out as had nothing to do with my kids and I wanted to be sure people understood that, but it has drifted away from that part of my life and is now more focused on my family, dreams and goals and I'm happy of that. Not that I don't still cling to certain proclivities, but I feel that perhaps, some things are better left unsaid, or at least said less often.



This is my husband 34, and myself...28 years old. We have been married 10 years, 6 months, 12 days, 1 hour and 37 minutes. I'm so in love with Him and feel blessed beyond words to have Him in my life.



This is my daughter and the eldest of my children at 8 years old. This one will go far in life, she is a strong willed and determined young lady. She knows exactly what she wants and how she wants it and will settle for nothing less. While these are admirable traits, they also keep me on my toes. I'm also proud to say that my girl was an Honor Roll student again this whole school year!



This is my middle child and oldest son, 7 years old. This child has a heart as big as the world and it is made of solid gold. He aims to please, and he is so smart, I know he can do absolutely anything he chooses too. Now, if I could find a way to get him motivated and excited about school and cleaning his room...lol!



This is the youngest of my boys, he just turned 4 in April. This little red head is a fire ball! He can be so sweet when he wants to, he is also very intelligent and can't wait to get into Head-Start this coming August.

Friday, June 08, 2007

Total Girly Post...

My friend came over before school to borrow my shower and had her camera, she said let me take your picture I'm taking picture of all my friends, so I said yes and here you have it folks...me at 7 AM. I'm not exactly sure what I was thinking, but I'm going to call it not being awake. I am not photogenic even on the best days, why I thought that would change in the morning I'll never know...lmao.

She actually wanted to get the picture because of my hair, you see I have terrible frizzies and she left her straightening iron here last night (I own one, but I now know that the one I bought sucks!) I used it and it took me twenty minutes with hers, while it generally takes me almost two hours with mine and never looks this good. Anyway, the point is I like it straight and so did she so she had to have a picture.



PS. Yes, I do have red and black hair. : p

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Que Sera, Sera...



Well, school is officially out and I have all 3 (8,7 & 4 years old) of my kids + my best friend's son, he is 9 years old. This makes for a full day, I am up by 7:30 am to let K's son in, feed him breakfast and get him settled down to watch cartoons or movies until my three are up, then I lay back down, mess around on the PC or just enjoy the quiet until mine wake. They believe in sleeping in as late as they can in the summer, they are up at 5:45 every day for school and appreciate being able to lounge. This works well while I'm watching Kade because he like to be alone and is happy to let my kids sleep and just watch TV, then when the other kids get up I get them fed, dressed and out to play for the day and hope like hell they can get along long enough for me to get some kind of cleaning done.

As soon as possible I'm going to get my application in and talk to the manager for a job I want, I'm also keeping my fingers crossed for the full time position that will open up as soon as the sign shop opens in their new building, the guy (he works in the sign shop doing most of their signs) I'm doing logos with is going to try and get me in there. I'm hoping to get an evening job until that opens up, I need the money as well as the time away from the house, not to say this will ease the things I still have to do at home, but it will ease the frustration of being at home all the time, staring at the same walls day after day. I also like to work, I'm good at it and good at making money...the idea of soon being able to do what I love and make good money doing it thrills me like practically nothing else could.

It's been a little crazy here for me, my mind is cluttered with the want to move up in my life, I'm tired of feeling as if I'll pass through this life and not leave a mark, a real mark...in some way. I know, I have three beautiful children and a wonderful husband and that I am SO blessed to have them. I only hope that my children will remember me as a happy, loving mother and I feel like they will never know me completely as that if I'm not able to do something that makes me feel like a success.

Does that make me a selfish person? I worry. I want so much to be one of those moms that are happy to stay at home all the time, bake and keep a spotless home, but in the nine years of having children I have given up on the spotless house idea and moved on to the...Perhaps if I put them in sports and keep them busy they wont be home to mess it up phase...and that takes $$$. Making money leaves little time for baking though and so I am left to ponder...Aghhhh! I'm tired of pondering, but know that will never really change for me, I want my children to be healthy, happy and secure in themselves more than anything else in this life and that leaves me no choice but to worry about each move I make and how it will effect them.Okay, I've taken a deep breath and know that eventually with enough work and loving care it will all work out and they know they are loved if nothing else.

I think I just have so much going through my head lately that I've barely been able to sort it all and the more I think about it...the more my options, choices and problems that come with all of that...grow. So, what am I doing about it? I'm stopping to take a breather, to enjoy my kids, the warm summer sun on my skin and the cool splash of water every chance I get. I will take the necessary steps to get the ball rolling in the work and school departments, but other than that...I'm letting it go, going to stop stressing on it so much. Life doesn't stop moving, but it will slow down if you take the time to will it to and all of those problems that we deal with on a daily basis...they will be there after you stop to breath, they will probably just seem smaller and easier to deal with. I can only do my best and beyond that, que sera, sera.

Monday, June 04, 2007

A New Piece

I SO want one of these...

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