Ok...if there is still anyone coming around to read...I apologize for my disappearance...I'm just not ever home anymore. I'm getting at least 45 hours a week at Camp and then whatever hours I can work on the ranch...as much as they will let me work...I'd be there 40 hours a week too if they'd let me. Keeping busy keeps my mind numb and right now that's what I need...not to think too much.
Anywho...that's a whole other post...maybe.
Hope You All have a wonderful week!
I have told you all about working at the farm, well yesterday I took T (my 5 year old...he just got out for summer break) out there with me. We had a blast. I bought a memory card for my camera and took it with me...This is one of the videos I took. S and N finally talked T into riding on the bull training barrel, he had a blast. The guy with the cowboy hat (N) runs the farm/ranch and the other guy is my brother-in-law... S. They also talked me into getting up there, but I wasn't about to let anyone video that. LOL!
While I'm not a huge fan of country music, this is one of my favorite country songs and I thought it fitting as he was really afraid to get up there, but did it anyway. I know it's not the best shooting, but I would say not too terrible for a first try. I'm also still figuring out all the ins and outs of editing video...anyway I thought I would see what you all think of it anyway.
Wow, I feel like a total slacker. Here it is a couple of weeks and I haven't posted anything. Thanks so much for those of you who have come by to check on me...You all kick ass!
Well, I guess I should start with the whole job thing...I'm working the restaurant part time (whenever the owner calls) and at a ranch with my brother-in-law (S), at a camp and here at the house getting it ready to sell. I am not fond of the kitchen job still, though it has gotten easier to deal with the smell, but I absofuckinglutely LOVE working on the ranch. I'm a huge fan of horses and this allows me the opportunity to be around them and work with them without paying out the ass for one...S is also one of the coolest people I have the honor of calling friend, so that's cool and did I mention that I love it! I'm working at a camp as a cook...I love this job as well, I get to cook without having to fry everything I cook. It's also not short order cooking, I cook a meal for anywhere from 30 to 150 people then serve the food and clean the kitchen. I like that a lot better. It also entails cleaning dorms, but that's not bad at all. I have also had a few people ask me to create some artistic things for them...Needless to say this keeps me pretty busy, but right now that's what I need...something to keep me occupied.
Tuesday J's grandmother died and that has been super hard on him as they were very close. She had a stroke about two weeks ago and has been struggling since then. So it was a blessing, I guess, in that she isn't in pain anymore. I will miss her terribly, she is without a doubt the most kind person I have ever met in my entire life. Period. I never heard that woman raise her voice or utter anything that could even remotely pass as judgmental, harsh or uncaring. She was 87 years old, Mother to 1, Grandmother to 3 and Great Grandmother to 10 grandchildren. She lived a long life and lived it as an amazing woman, mother, grandmother and great grandmother.
Other than this there really isn't much of anything at all going on in my life right now...I guess I should be glad of this as my plate is pretty full as is. Hope you all have a wonderful week!
I just wanted to let everyone know that if I don't manage to comment it's not because I'm not reading or anything....it's just that I'm either not here or too tired to even turn on my PC. I'm not going anywhere, I will still be here, it's just that right now I'm trying to get into some kind of regular work schedule, right now I am just working whenever the owner has me there.
I have so many "OMG that's my favorite song!" songs...really! Music moves me as nothing (Not even mind numbing sex) can. I don't know why, but it and it alone can sooth me as no other thing on this earth. My art included and I absolutely love doing that. It still doesn't touch what the right song can do for me, so I think I'm going to start posting them on this blog more often. I believe that if you take the time to listen to the words of a song someone else is listening to, you can get a good idea of what point they are in their lives. I choose songs that best suite what I am going through...mentally...it reminds me that I am not the only who feels this way...that I am normal (to a point). Call it reaffirmation if you will. Whatever. The point is...I love music and would like to make it a part of this blog.
That said: Here is my favorite song of the moment...
Here is the acoustic version...
These are a couple of pictures of my friends, they wanted fantasy pictures and this is what I have so far...I'm still working with both of them, but it's mostly just tweaking what I already have.
This is a logo idea that I am working on for a local band, they want me to design t-shirt logos...this is most definitely NOT a finished product, but something I threw together in about 5 minutes to show the guy where my mind was headed...they weren't interested in that particular design, but he did say he liked the direction I was headed with it. If the t-shirts sell I will get a percentage and that would be nice! Perhaps this will lead to something.
In Other News: We have about 3 inches of snow (actually it's small hail and sleet with a deceptive little layer of snow over it) on the ground and more to come, up to six inches...hmmm...that's what they all say...*goes to get her measuring tape*!
Have a bitchin' Spring Break!!!
Here are a few pics that I'd forgotten about...You may have seen these somewhere, but I thought them worthy of posting again...They are just so full of wisdom. ;-)
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4. When all else fails............................
5. And finally...
So, tomorrow is the big day...
I go to see the Dr. and am keeping my fingers, arms and legs crossed that I don't have any major issues...well, my fingers and arms, unfortunately I wont be able to cross my legs during this procedure!
I'm trying very hard not to think too much about it, it freaks me out quite a bit. I had a biopsy on my throat with the Thyroid Cancer and I'm not at all excited about them doing a biopsy on my...uhm, yeah, so anyway! I mean...I know I'm a pain slut and all, but needles inside that area...not my thing!
So much for not thinking about it!
I'm off to hyperventilate for a minute so I can get on with my house work....
I have read the book "Scarlet Letters" and am aware of its popularity. I am also a HUGE fan of "Gone With the Wind" and I'm well aware that I'm not the only fan of either of these...
What I wasn't aware of was how totally unoriginal the name to this blog is! I went online just to see how often "Scarlett Letters" was mentioned in a Google search and was blown away by how many other blogs share the name! I read one lady's Bio and would have thought it was mine had I not known that I didn't make it!
So, this is how I discovered that I'm a totally unoriginal blogger!
My daughter wanted me to take a picture today, she wanted to be an ice princess...I ended up playing around with it in Photo Shop. This is how it turned out...
I have some more work to do on the ears and eyes, but I'm happy with what I have done up to this point...
Here is a picture of me, I was just messing around with Photo Shop. Then I got into it and decided to make a picture of me if I were an elf! I would love to really have irises like that!
| People Definitely Like You |
 You are friendly, well mannered, and fun to be around. Of course, you're not perfect... but that's okay. Your friends are usually willing to accept you for who you are! What People Don't Like About You: People don't like that you seem unnatural and stiff at times. You sometimes give off an impression of being standoffish or fake. People don't like that you're not very interesting or engaging. You often bore them... and yourself. What People Like About You: People like that you give them support and strength. Friends know that they can count on you to be there for them. People like that you give them complements. You make people feel good about themselves! People like that you don't gossip or talk poorly of others. They trust that you will speak positively about them too. |
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And auld lang syne?
Chorus:
For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne.
We'll take a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.
And surely ye'll be your pint-stowp!
And surely I'll be mine!
And we'll take a cup o' kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
We twa hae run about the braes
And pou'd the gowans fine.
We've wandered mony a weary foot,
Sin' auld lang syne.
We twa hae sported i' the burn,
From morning sun till dine,
But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin' auld lang syne.
And ther's a hand, my trusty friend,
And gie's a hand o' thine;
We'll tak' a right good willie-waught,,
For auld lang syne.
I finally did what I have sworn to do for 3 years now, find and read the lyrics to this song because I've never heard anyone actually singing the words, only mumbles past the well known part...(Should auld acquaintance be forgot, And never brought to mind? Should auld acquaintance be forgot, And auld lang syne?)...you get the picture. Not that seeing the words help to understand it anymore than I did before...there you have it anyway. Auld Lang Syne
Is upon us, once again and it's the time of year that people are making resolutions...
I too have thought about changes I would like to bring about in my life, number one being to get myself into school this year if it kills us all! Of course I'm not going to kill anyone, but this is very important to me and I think it will greatly change (for the better) some of the opinions I have of myself. Speaking of changing opinions, that's another thing I am going to do this year, work on how I see myself, because I know that no matter what anyone else thinks (and I do respect many of your opinions), weather good or bad, it will never mean as much to me and I will never gain anything from those opinions if I don't see myself from a healthy perspective. Enough said, those are my resolutions for 2008!
January 1st, 2008 is a very special day to me, it marks the eleventh year that Jay and I have been married. Some times it only seems like yesterday that we stood in a church and said our vows, others, it would seem another lifetime, funny, how time works. I feel like the most incredibly blessed woman in the world and at times find myself lacking the words to explain how he still makes me feel, though, cherished, loved and safe pop into mind instantly when I think of him. All I really know is that He makes me want to be a better person, for myself, for him, for our children...and that can never be a bad thing! Thank you Jay for coming into my life...I love You!
I know, I know, this all sounds very emotionally mushy and stuff, but as much as I hate to admit it, I am a woman and prone to emotional outbreaks from time to time, so get over it! lol!
I hope that You all ring in a safe and Happy New Year!
The holidays have been wonderful this year, especially after receiving a gift I've wanted for years! A camera.
This camera...
I've been snapping pictures of unsuspecting victims (family/friends/animals/trees...pretty much anything that will stay still long enough for me to shoot!) all week. Here are a few that I really like...
This is Tony(our youngest, 4), while it looks like he fell off a bike, this wasn't the case, he was actually upset because he got a remote control truck and the battery was taking too long to charge. I wish he'd been smiling, but I like the way this turned out never the less.
This is Eli (He'll be 8 Jan. 6th, the middle child), he was out playing and I got him to stop a second to catch this shot, another that I really like.
And this is of the neighbor's cat, I'm not a huge fan of cats, but I like the coloration of this animal, so I caught it sitting still and got this...
I hope to figure out soon how to get the pictures onto the computer without them becoming so huge!
I hope you all have had a wonderful holiday season so far and wish you all a spectacular new year!
I said...
"I am also so ecstatic about what’s going on with our house! We are renovating…if I had a camera I would be taking pictures of all this to show you guys, but alas I do not, perhaps J will get me one for Christmas ; ) That would be mega cool!"
Well, I have the coolest husband in the world! He got me a camera, a really nice one too! (Must put BJ on my list of things to give Him!) So, I started taking pictures already and have some of the addition that was once the carport, now, taking on the shape of a room. I'm SO excited. We swapped gifts last night as he thought it would be nice to have a camera for the holidays, ya know! I didn't argue at all, I thought it was one of the finest ideas he's come up with yet...lol!
Anywho, here are the pics!
(This will be the theater room when it's all closed in.)
(Double doors that I've wanted so long!)
(From inside the theater room looking out through the not yet finished walls.)
There are sure to be more soon!
Have a wonderful Christmas!
I was over at Rock Dog's Blog and saw this really cool meme that he did, and decided to do one myself.
It asks what you would say to yourself if you could write a note to you when you were 13, did that make sense? Here are a few things I would love to say to me back then.
Dear thirteen year old Scarlett,
I’m writing you (myself) from 16 years in the future, the date is 12/20/07, the president is George Bush, no not Bush Sr. there is a Jr. Yes, yet another one made it in...God Bless America :o)
Anyway, none of that is why I’m writing you, there will be time for that later. For now I want to try and pass down a few pieces of knowledge that you may find useful. Here goes…
Whatever you do, where ever you go, no matter who you happen to be around…DON’T let people convince you that you’re ugly, stupid and worthless, it’s just not true and you’re going to spend the next sixteen years making stupid mistakes to convince yourself of this and you’re going to waste a lot of time beating yourself up over why these people don’t like you. It’s their loss, let that shit roll off your back. Besides, most of those people now look at you and trip out on how different you look and YES you will have boobs someday!
Work HARD in school, don’t be lazy, you’re smart and would do well to learn now while your young, believe me, you will appreciate yourself more in the future if you do. History IS important and you will find later in your life that you actually DO enjoy the subject; in fact you love learning of any kind. Pay particular attention to your English/Literature classes, it will come in handy when you begin writing, yes, we write (sometimes), isn’t that cool!
Don’t light that cigarette! Put that out right now! You dense girl, what the hell are you thinking, you sing, you play musical instruments and you’re fucking it all up even though you don’t realize it yet, you’re laying the path that will eventually take a big toll on all of that! Take care of your lungs, keep singing and playing, don’t let that talent slip past you, you have as good a chance as anyone to make something out of it, so long as you don’t screw it up!
Draw your heart out! Let all of it out in your art, stop bottling things up, it doesn’t help. It’s only going to build up more and more until we just become a very angry little bitch for a while.
Remember that no matter what is going on in your life, it will pass, there is nothing placed in front of you that you aren’t able to handle if you will use your mind to figure it out and not just react emotionally.
I could go on for ages on things you shouldn’t do and things that will make your (my/our) life easier, but you are young and curious, and have much on your mind, so I will stop now and let you get back to your life. It does get brighter :o) go live it!
Your Future Self
P.S. You are still a tomboy and I don’t think that will change though you will learn to enjoy getting dressed up to go out with your significant other. Yes dear, you will eventually find someone….
I have decided that I am the grinch, all this talk of lovely memories; happy holidays, Christmas long past and such make my toes curl...
It's not the holiday itself per se, I guess, but the stress of buying, shopping, buying, searching and did I mention buying? I'm such a guy when it comes to shopping; I hate it!
I am excited to see the reaction on my children's faces this year though, we are getting them each their own game system (probably a PS2 each, for the older two and perhaps a V Smile for our 4 year old) and I know they are going to freak, but in a good way. This will be their first game system and I think they'll love them!
I am also so ecstatic about what’s going on with our house! We are renovating…if I had a camera I would be taking pictures of all this to show you guys, but alas I do not, perhaps J will get me one for Christmas ; ) That would be mega cool!
Anyway, about the house…we are turning the carport into a family room and Theater room, the ultimate man room, I’m going to get pictures of it somehow for you guys when he finishes it. With what he has in mind I’m sure that this house will be the hang out place for all the kids of the neighborhood…just lovely…lol! We are also ripping up all the carpet and putting in wood and tile floors throughout the house, can’t wait for that to be complete, no more pesky carpet stains!
I hope you all have a wonderful week!
This is my current desktop background. I was fooling around in Photo Shop and this is what I got. Nothing special, but simple with just a splash of color to remind me to smile when the world is gray. : ) Corny...I know.
Have a wonderful weekend my (as hubby calls you all) blog buddies
Thank You Rock Dog for mentioning my blog on your bitchin' show!!! That was super cool.
