HNT

Recently, I joined this group at CafeMom called The Patio and they are doing boobie shots, don't ask...I don't know, but I decided to join in. The picture is terrible, but I thought it might make a fun HNT post, it'll be my first ever!



Happy Half-Naked Thursday!

Look Into My Eye...

Okay, I was bored, so I decided to fool around on Photo Shop and was looking on my PC through my photos when I came upon this one. It was a half way decent picture of me, so I decided...what the hell, why not mess it all up and this is what I came up with...

Singing in the RAIN...well, maybe not, but...

I'm sitting here at my desk with my window open enjoying something that I haven't seen in a while. Rain! It started raining yesterday and hasn't stopped, it's absolutely wonderful and I just can't seem to get enough. It has finally come back to my favorite season of the year, I love Fall with it's vibrant colours and crisp scents that carry in the cool clean air. I like the way the wind will carry a sound so far through the ever thinning trees, but mostly I like the rain. The cleansing wash of rain that carries all the gunk and grime of summer away. No more dust that clings to everything, turning the grass a dull green until it chokes and dies, dry and withered. Until Autumn (I love that word) when the rain falls again and bright flaming red, purple and yellow/orange hues fill every yard, in the sky and on the ground.

I know this will sound odd, but I think that somehow the crisp air makes the colours seem that much brighter, perhaps the cold air and rain somehow purify the air as it falls and gets rid of the hot, humid haze that we've lived in for for the last two and a half months. Anyway, however it works, I'm always so thankful when October rolls around. We have finally had a break in the terrible drought and I can feel how sated all of nature is, it makes me feel at peace. The sound coming through my open window is so soothing, I always sleep well when it's raining or storming the rhythm lulls me. Hmm... Speaking of sleep, have a good night all!

Still Kicking...

Ok, so it's been a long time without me posting anything or just silly space fillers to let you guys know that I am indeed still alive and kicking. I have been in search of a job, but the more I think about it, the more I think I want to create my own job. I'm tired of busting MY ass to line some loser's pockets for them. I also figure this will allow me more options on going to school and having all that work out. I have talked about this with a friend I have known from about 12 years old. We work really well together and both feel the same about busting our asses for basicaly nothing. Anyway, wish me luck.

On the home front, my 4 year old is NOT into going to head_start at all. He hates to see me leave and flips out. I can hear him screaming all the way to my van out in the parking lot if he happens to catch me before I can sneak out the back door. He is fine so long as he doesn't see me leaving, but god help all of it doesn't work out that way! My 7 year old isn't liking school this year either, but that is because he is lazy and doesn't want to do the work all he wants is to play, play, play! Get over it kid...life isn't at all like that! He also doesn't react well to his teacher's in his face approach, he's like me if someone gets in my face, I shut down and they will get exactly not a damn thing from me. Geez! Then there is my daughter...oh how I like my daughter, my sweet little A+ student that 9 times out of 10 will have her work done before she gets on the bus to head home. Now if she would put as much effort into keeping her room clean...

My husband is of course as always so good to us, works so hard and wants only to show us how much he cares. I wouldn't trade all the gold in the world for him, thank you J for being mine!

Well, I think I have run out of things to say and it's about time to go get T from head start so I'm going to mosey on now, but I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

Although the world is full of suffering; It is equally full of overcoming it!: Helen Keller

Tagged!...

I was tagged by the lovely Chalice and this time I will be sure to complete it!

What's on your desktop?

Here's what's on mine.

Unconscious Mutterings...Posted Words

These words are from Unconscious Mutterings

1. Dork :: Whale Penis


2. Refurbished :: Furniture


3. Basket :: Picnic


4. Mousse :: Chocolate


5. Studio :: Apartment


6. 8 ball :: Fortune Teller


7. Masking tape :: Packing/Moving


8. Love :: Family


9. Wilder :: Laura Engels


10. Lindsey :: Lohan

There, They're, Their...

You Scored an A

You got 10/10 questions correct. It's pretty obvious that you don't make basic grammatical errors. If anything, you're annoyed when people make simple mistakes on their blogs. As far as people with bad grammar go, you know they're only human. And it's humanity and its current condition that truly disturb you sometimes.

The It's Its There Their They're Quiz

Farewell Pavarotti...

Today Luciano Pavarotti Died at the age of 71, due to pancreatic cancer. He died in his home in Italy and the world of Music will miss him surely. My husband very much admires his talent and through J, I have also come to appreciate the beauty of his voice.

Farewell Pavarotti...



You will be missed by many.

Life...

I think I have permanently run out of creative things to write, draw, or say, whatever. It's a pretty empty feeling as if my muse suddenly realized she wasn't interested in me anymore, perhaps someone more polished caught her eye. I have sat down to this key board so many times in the last few weeks and could come up with absolutely nothing to say. Nothing has been able to spark an interest in me lately and I'm pretty sure it all stems from my want to be in school right now. I understand that now isn't a good time financially with my husband's new (1 year old) company and with the price of day care for three kids on a one income home, so I will put it off and get a job (once I get my vehicle working properly again) until next year, sock away some cash for the cost of day care or whatever when I am in school and grit my teeth in anticipation until it can finally happen. Did I mention I'm not the most patient person in the world?

I'm still waiting to see if my youngest son will qualify for head-start, if not I will just have to take some of that cash I'm socking away for school and spend it on day care. Ahh, it never ends...does it? On the up side, my other two kids are in school and one is doing their work hole heartedly...the other, not so much. We're working on it. Any tips to getting a lazy kid to do...well, anything? I think we may have to have a teacher swap, his teacher is a bit unaware of personal boundaries and my son doesn't respond well to that, for that matter nether did I when she was right in my face talking to me about my son, she wasn't mean or rude per se, but she really didn't seem to have a clue or care about invading another person's space and that's a big thing for me. My son is quite a bit like me in that when someone invades my space or gets confrontational, I shut down, I have nothing left to say because I tend to get tongue tied and just make a fool of myself so shutting up is a much more dignified recourse for me. I'm not sure that is the logic behind his shutting down, but whatever the reason he does and I have seen first hand how he responds to the teacher. I had to bite my tongue when she literally backed him to the wall (right in front of me) and was only about 10 inches from his face talking to him. I want my children to respect their teachers so I didn't say anything while he was there, but I told her while he waited on me int he hall... (this conversation was on the 5th day of school starting.)
"Well, Ms.H, you are a bit different than any teacher he has had so far."
What do you mean, Mrs. P.?"
"You are a bit more in his face and more out spoken than any other teacher he's had, I'm not trying to tell you how to do your job because god knows I don't think I could do it, but his other teachers were firm yet a little more gentle with him, he responded to them differently."
"Well, I have tried to be nice and give him chance after chance to do his work and he just wont do it, I can't allow him to take time away from every other student in the class."
"I agree whole heartedly Ms. H, and I have let E know that his laziness will not be tolerated, we will continue to work with you on this. Thank you for taking the time to see me about him and we will keep a close eye on his daily progress folder for updates."

I continued to do the two-step with her to just keep her at least arms length so she would stop touching my person while the conversation turned to her telling me she thinks he is ADD. I don't know why he isn't willing to do anything for the poor lady, but I know that no matter how tedious or time consuming a project may be here at home if it is something he wants to do or is getting paid to do, he can accomplish it with no problems keeping his mind focused. I'm not saying he isn't ADD and I'm more than willing to have him tested, but I do think that some teachers are all to eager to push drugs on students that pose the least bit of discomfort to the stability or flow of the way they picture their class functioning. I am not and will not ever say that all teachers are this way and I mean no disrespect to any teacher, even for those that I would say diagnose children as ADD or ADHD too quickly, I admire people who have the gift to teach and often wish it were one of my talents as I think that might make parenting easier. I do however believe that there are those few (as in any other profession) that would rather do the easier thing and simply give the child something that will force him to calm down, like it or not. I fear that it's a bad thing to teach children that a pill will cure everything at such a young age, not to mention the fact that once they are on Ritalin or other such drugs they then have to take more drugs to curb the side-effects of the first drug introduced, by the time they are ten years old they're already taking a hand full of pills to make it all go away. Stress, anxiety and having to handle responsibilities or the feeling that go along with not handling them is just a part of life and I don't think teaching our kids to suppress their feelings with drugs is a good thing for their future in a world that is generally full of stress.

Let me go ahead and say that I do think that for some children these drugs are completely necessary, I have known some children that were literally unable to control their need to fidget and this drug help them to become a more stable person without loosing them self in the drug, but I also know others that simply need an outlet, a place to use the talent that is bottled up inside and let it shine, giving the attention or self worth that they need to find and will never find in a pill. I'm not downing medicines I just think they shouldn't be so readily given out to children.

Well, this wasn't supposed to be a soap box rant, but that is what is seemed to turn into...see, nothing creative to write about. Hence my absence in writing, perhaps soon I will have something more interesting to share, until then...Have a beautiful time!

Thrown Together

Here is a wall paper that I made for my desktop. Nothing special, just something I threw together. I hope some day soon I will be inspired to write or draw or something again.





2cd Version (and my favorite of the two)

Remember Me? By Lizzy Palmer

This was sent to me in an email and well worth posting, actually I'd have felt like an ass after watching this if I hadn't.

To all who serve in honor of this great country...My heartfelt gratitude for defending my right to be free. For this I love you, I am proud of You, and I will never forget.

Videos

Alive...

I just wanted to let everyone know I am alive and doing pretty good. I will try to get that tag done for Chalice soon, sorry Chal that it's taking so long, but I have not forgotten!

Here are a few quizzes I found...

You are Bettie Page

Girl next door with a wild streak You're a famous beauty - with unique look And the people like you are cultish about it

What Famous Pinup Are You?

You Are 79% Real

You know who you are, and you're pretty darn comfortable with yourself. Like everyone, you struggle with the parts of yourself that aren't so great... But you're good at accepting who you are and not dwelling on your faults. As a result, you're confident, optimistic, and very real.

How Real Are You?

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Spiderman

"I have always been standing in your doorway. Isn't it about time somebody saved your life?"

What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?

Your Glamour Icon Is

Beauty is eternity gazing at itself in a mirror.

What Glamour Icon Best Represents You?

What Kind of Coffee Girl are You?

You Are a Plain Ole Cup of Joe

But don't think plain - instead think, uncomplicated You're a low maintenance kind of girl... who can hang with the guys Down to earth, easy going, and fun! Yup, that's you: the friend everyone invites. And your dependable too. Both for a laugh and a sympathetic ear.

What Kind of Coffee Girl Are You?

A Little of This and That...

Here are a few songs that caught my fancy lately...my taste is very eclectic so here you go.
Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah


Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder


Imogen Heap - Headlock


Breaking Benjamin- Breath

Tagged...

* I have to post these rules before I give you the facts.

* Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.

* People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.

* At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.

* Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.


8 Things About Me…

One. I don’t like basements, underground parking, caves or any small, closed in places. I don’t like the thought of thousands of pounds of weight above my head just waiting to collapse on me.

Two. I love flying, I want to learn to fly a glider some day, there is nothing like the way you feel when you’re above everything.

Three. I’m not fond of being at the top of tall buildings.

Four. I want to visit every Country in the world: Australia, Egypt, Israel and Scotland in particular.

Five. I don’t like to see kids with no respect. I think that people have too little respect for life in general.

Six. I want to start some sort of operation that will reach the people in THIS country who are without. I don’t mean those able to change their lives on their own, but those stuck in such places as the Appalachian Mountains, with few to no chances of ever leaving or changing the situation they’re in.

Seven. I love nature, anything that can be done out of doors is wonderful!

Eight. This is the first time I have ever been tagged to blog something!

And the winners are...
Queen of the Mayhem, and sadly to say...that's about the only other blogger I know to tag that hasn't already been tagged or that is still posting...if I can think of anyone else, I'll surely add them.

This One Tears Me Up...

I absolutely love this song, it makes me want to get up and move and if I could get hubby to dance like this...well, I swear I would have to chew his pants off right in the middle of the dance floor. If you can't tell, I love to dance and this song is definitely one I can get my groove on with.





I will have more to post, hopefully later today!

Allow Me to Introduce...

I don't think you have ever been introduced to my family, I'm not sure why I've waited so long to do this, perhaps it was what this blog originally started out as had nothing to do with my kids and I wanted to be sure people understood that, but it has drifted away from that part of my life and is now more focused on my family, dreams and goals and I'm happy of that. Not that I don't still cling to certain proclivities, but I feel that perhaps, some things are better left unsaid, or at least said less often.



This is my husband 34, and myself...28 years old. We have been married 10 years, 6 months, 12 days, 1 hour and 37 minutes. I'm so in love with Him and feel blessed beyond words to have Him in my life.



This is my daughter and the eldest of my children at 8 years old. This one will go far in life, she is a strong willed and determined young lady. She knows exactly what she wants and how she wants it and will settle for nothing less. While these are admirable traits, they also keep me on my toes. I'm also proud to say that my girl was an Honor Roll student again this whole school year!



This is my middle child and oldest son, 7 years old. This child has a heart as big as the world and it is made of solid gold. He aims to please, and he is so smart, I know he can do absolutely anything he chooses too. Now, if I could find a way to get him motivated and excited about school and cleaning his room...lol!



This is the youngest of my boys, he just turned 4 in April. This little red head is a fire ball! He can be so sweet when he wants to, he is also very intelligent and can't wait to get into Head-Start this coming August.

Total Girly Post...

My friend came over before school to borrow my shower and had her camera, she said let me take your picture I'm taking picture of all my friends, so I said yes and here you have it folks...me at 7 AM. I'm not exactly sure what I was thinking, but I'm going to call it not being awake. I am not photogenic even on the best days, why I thought that would change in the morning I'll never know...lmao.

She actually wanted to get the picture because of my hair, you see I have terrible frizzies and she left her straightening iron here last night (I own one, but I now know that the one I bought sucks!) I used it and it took me twenty minutes with hers, while it generally takes me almost two hours with mine and never looks this good. Anyway, the point is I like it straight and so did she so she had to have a picture.



PS. Yes, I do have red and black hair. : p

Que Sera, Sera...

Well, school is officially out and I have all 3 (8,7 & 4 years old) of my kids + my best friend's son, he is 9 years old. This makes for a full day, I am up by 7:30 am to let K's son in, feed him breakfast and get him settled down to watch cartoons or movies until my three are up, then I lay back down, mess around on the PC or just enjoy the quiet until mine wake. They believe in sleeping in as late as they can in the summer, they are up at 5:45 every day for school and appreciate being able to lounge. This works well while I'm watching Kade because he like to be alone and is happy to let my kids sleep and just watch TV, then when the other kids get up I get them fed, dressed and out to play for the day and hope like hell they can get along long enough for me to get some kind of cleaning done.

As soon as possible I'm going to get my application in and talk to the manager for a job I want, I'm also keeping my fingers crossed for the full time position that will open up as soon as the sign shop opens in their new building, the guy (he works in the sign shop doing most of their signs) I'm doing logos with is going to try and get me in there. I'm hoping to get an evening job until that opens up, I need the money as well as the time away from the house, not to say this will ease the things I still have to do at home, but it will ease the frustration of being at home all the time, staring at the same walls day after day. I also like to work, I'm good at it and good at making money...the idea of soon being able to do what I love and make good money doing it thrills me like practically nothing else could.

It's been a little crazy here for me, my mind is cluttered with the want to move up in my life, I'm tired of feeling as if I'll pass through this life and not leave a mark, a real mark...in some way. I know, I have three beautiful children and a wonderful husband and that I am SO blessed to have them. I only hope that my children will remember me as a happy, loving mother and I feel like they will never know me completely as that if I'm not able to do something that makes me feel like a success.

Does that make me a selfish person? I worry. I want so much to be one of those moms that are happy to stay at home all the time, bake and keep a spotless home, but in the nine years of having children I have given up on the spotless house idea and moved on to the...Perhaps if I put them in sports and keep them busy they wont be home to mess it up phase...and that takes $$$. Making money leaves little time for baking though and so I am left to ponder...Aghhhh! I'm tired of pondering, but know that will never really change for me, I want my children to be healthy, happy and secure in themselves more than anything else in this life and that leaves me no choice but to worry about each move I make and how it will effect them.Okay, I've taken a deep breath and know that eventually with enough work and loving care it will all work out and they know they are loved if nothing else.

I think I just have so much going through my head lately that I've barely been able to sort it all and the more I think about it...the more my options, choices and problems that come with all of that...grow. So, what am I doing about it? I'm stopping to take a breather, to enjoy my kids, the warm summer sun on my skin and the cool splash of water every chance I get. I will take the necessary steps to get the ball rolling in the work and school departments, but other than that...I'm letting it go, going to stop stressing on it so much. Life doesn't stop moving, but it will slow down if you take the time to will it to and all of those problems that we deal with on a daily basis...they will be there after you stop to breath, they will probably just seem smaller and easier to deal with. I can only do my best and beyond that, que sera, sera.

A New Piece

I SO want one of these...

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Free Association...

Thank You...Unconscious Mutterings.

1. Savage :: Nature
2. Warrior :: Athena
3. Daisy :: Duke
4. Schedule :: Work
5. Rock, paper, scissors :: School
6. Medical :: Insurance
7. Jade :: Statue
8. Elevator :: Music
9. Drain :: Bath Tub
10. Goldfish :: Glass Bowl

Water Fun...

My Internet has been off and on the last few days, the best I can figure is there is something wrong with my modem. I am supposed to be connected all the time, but it's been luck of the draw for about five days. Tomorrow I'm taking the modem to the Cable company for a replacement. That should fix it, I hope.

We had a blast yesterday kayaking, the river was splendid, even if it was too crowded for my taste. The weather was beautiful and we visited our favorite little waterfall, a wonderful little secluded spot where the water splashes down from about 70 feet above and a cool breeze blows in from the river, the brush is just thick enough to make it a very (yes, you lovely pervs, that's what I mean :) private place.

All in all a spectacular day to be out in the sun and water! I wish we had a camera, when we get one I promise to take a picture of our water fall and post it. Hope you are all having a wonderful summer so far...

Hello Again...

Wow, it's been a whole minute since I last blogged.
I'm blogging right now, quite simply, because I'm seething and need to occupy my mind for a while. Some people boggle me with their selfish and silly ways. I understand the kids need to be kind to animals and I know that my little one sometimes gets over excited with them, but he is a child and more importantly a human being. Now, let me back up and explain myself and where I'm going with this.
I have a neighbor, whom will remain nameless, and she came over to visit. She has 4 cats and worships these animals, that's great for her, I'm happy for her. Well, she was over here and my son was trying to pet our kitten and picked it up by the scruff of the neck (like a mother cat would do) and this woman went ballistic! In MY house, in front of my child! She started yelling that I should teach my children to be "nice" to animals, she then turned to yell at my child. That was it! I told her in no uncertain terms to get out of my house and stay out.
I'm not proud of the way I handled some of it, but all he did was pick up the kitten, the way I taught him to. She believes that is an inhumane way to hold the kitten. I tried to explain to her that mother cats often carry their kittens this way and that it is perfectly natural. That's when she started her tirade. Thankfully she will be moving to Florida soon. Good luck to her! I swear to all I know, I'm tired of people! It seems that the more people I meet...The less I like people. I think I'm happy to just keep my little circle of blog buddies and be done with most of the rest. If only!
On a lighter note...
I'm still excited about school and right now, I'm looking for a job to keep me busy until then. A little extra money never hurts either, so I'm getting an evening job. I'm also still doing the logo thing, though that is in all honesty moving a little slower than I had hoped. Still, I'm new to all of this and really can't expect for it to move very fast...I have SO much to learn.
I feel a tad bit better after having gotten that off my shoulders and my hands are steadily beginning to stop shaking. Perhaps I've settled just a bit. Sorry to you guys for the rant, but hell, if I can't rant here, then where???
P.S. Ladies, if you haven't been over to Angel Feathers Tickle Me you should go check out her latest post Imagine A Woman. It is absolutely beautiful!