Monday, October 30, 2006
Sunday, October 29, 2006
What is it that allows people to take advantage of others? Why can't people just give a damn sometimes. Think of more than just themselves for a while. What possesses these people to take what they can and then when they don't need you anymore...to do all the damage they can, make you feel like shit and toss you away like so much rubbish. I think I have officially lost ALL hope in humanity, to hell with it.
I am DONE trying to meet and make new friends, to hell with that too. Perhaps just being a solitary soul is my destiny. I have J and He is all that I need. I think the word friend describes nothing more that smoke and fantasy. A word created to deliberately keep you reaching for something that has never nor will ever exist. To hell with it.
I DO NOT want this to sound like a poor pitiful me post because it's not. I just needed a place to vent and I guess that IS why I have a blog.
Posted by Scarlett at 10:16 AM
Friday, October 27, 2006
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Thursday, October 19, 2006
I'm looking out my window right now, watching my children play as I type this, I love all the colors of Fall. The world seems to be ablaze for a few short weeks before dozing through the long, cold winter. Fall is the earth's way of reminding us before its nap, that winter will only last a while and then spring brings all things new. Life reborn and empowered with youth, a hunger to grow. But first the Earth must rest and let herself heal, slough off the old to prepare for the new.
The bright reds and oranges stand out passionately against the darker hues of the evergreen and the now dulling grass. I think Tennessee is an absolutely gorgeous state during the Autumn, I don't much care for it the rest of the year, except the very begining of spring when everything is that bright, new leafling green and the rain gives the air a refreshing, clean taste as you breath it in. So it is refreshing when the wind has a slight bite to it, when you pull your jacket a little tighter and squeeze close to the one you love.
Fall ultimately reminds me of the fair. I went this year.(Twice) I took my kids one night and watching them skip around, wide eyed and in awe of the lights and fast rides. This isn't their first year to go of course, but that is one of the beauties of childhood, the ability to take delight in things over and over again. Bounce me on your knee, throw me in the air, spin me round and round. These things will forever be fun in the heart of the young. Does anyone else still love to climb trees or jump on the trampoline while skipping rope? I hope I never get too old to enjoy those simple things.
It's funny really, it dawned on me (perhaps, not for the first time?) that life is very much like the seasons...
Spring = Youth,
Summer = Young Adult,
Fall = Mature Adult,
Winter = Elderly.
Summer sure is different than I thought it would be back in the Spring...Ya know? And how do we know when we're out of our Summer phase and into Fall? I guess when I'm more mature...I'll know. It will probably happen long before I'm ready to admit, but I swear to stave off growing up too fast...(Were there lost girls as well as boys in NeverLand?) as long as possible. I think if we remain kids at heart and hold on to that special warmth that comes in the Spring of Youth, so long as we keep our hearts burried deep from the cold of Winter we'll be forever young in the Autumn and Winter of our Lives.
Posted by Scarlett at 8:37 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
I have tried to find work in my town and am now fully convinced that there just isn't work to be had, so, I'm going back to school instead. I've wanted to get my RN for a while now and tomorrow I'm going to find out when classes will start. I suppose this will be just as good as finding work, even if we do have to take out yet another loan. At least when my studies are done I will be able to pay them all back relatively easily. That will be SO nice. Not to owe anything. Anyway, enough $$$ talk. I'm finally on my way to earning my wings!
Posted by Scarlett at 6:37 PM